My Creative Reality

Birthdays and Baby Showers

2012-01-31T18:24:00.000-08:00

With the weeks and days flying by, I barely have had time to remember that I turned 32! It was a good day that started at the prenatal specialist, then the camera store, then ended roses and rest! My Handsome sent the most beautiful and massive 2 dozen roses that are still looking and smelling lovely. I bought a small camera to keep in the diaper bag that I'm pretty excited about! I'll be sharing some pics with it at some point.

The baby shower was almost indescribable. 120-130 of my friends and family joined us last Saturday for a big celebration. Here's what I learned...

1. It takes a LONG time to open gifts from that many people. After the first hour and a half, my sister said "Look, if its diapers or wipes, just tell me the name and move on. Don't even get it out of the bag." Everyone understood and was happy to have things going faster;)

(These are about half of the gifts....those are two 8 ft. tables)

2. If it's your baby shower, it's TOTALLY ok to go barefoot when your feet swell beyond your shoes.

3. A photo booth and props are always a good idea. I will never have a another party without one;) (Stay tuned for tips on creating and hosting a photo booth.)

4. Having great prizes for the games makes things much more competitive and fun. Everyone was eager to participate and were trying to outsmart each other in our "Daddy Knows Best" questionaire. The prize? A large gift basket of all the foods I have craved throughout the pregnancy...including a large gift card to Chick-fil-a of course;)

5. It was smart to hire a photographer I trusted. I didn't have to worry if we were getting good shots or not with Wendy Calhoun Photography taking care of the event. Seriously the BEST decision I made about the shower. My sister in law, Mandy Cauley Photography, also took photos, and they too are amazing, but it was nice to not have to have either of us killing ourselves for the shots. If you're in need of a good photographer, I highly recommend both girls!

My wooden chalkboard sign welcomed guest to the children's book themed shower.

This is the stage in front where we opened gifts.

The favors were ribbon bookmarks handmade by my friend in Bakersfield, CA.

The back of the photo booth had photos of us when we were little and a few maternity pics.

Each guest was greeted and given a "book" of their own. It included the games, a card for "Wishes for the Baby" and a thank-you note from Handsome and I.

We printed quotes from my favorite children's books onto clear labels and put them on white doilies under the plates;)

Arrangements in vintage milk glass were set on vintage children's books and an artificial moss placemat.

LOVED the cake SO MUCH!!!!!! It tasted as good as it looked;) We called a friend, Melissa Sessions of Lissa Roo Cakes and described what I was looking for. It turned out so wonderful!!! I highly recommend her cakes for your next event.

6. I should have been more specific when we explained the "Wishes for the Baby" cards for the baby book. Each guest was given a 4x6 card to write a note or wish for the baby book. There were interesting results;) Sadly, most people didn't sign them. I just wish we had names beside most of the notes. Funny though, some of them expressed what the baby was wishing for.

One of them simply read, "He's wishing for a name!"
Yet another read, "My wish is that he meets Jesus at an early age...."

I'm thinking, FIND Jesus, not MEET him! There's a BIG difference!
It's so wonderful that we will have these cards to read for years to come.

7. We are SO loved and blessed;) It was amazing seeing friends and family that drove and flew in to party with us, not to mention the gifts. I still choke up a bit when looking through the photos and gifts.

Now that it's over, organizing and sorting has begun. I still feel like I'm not ready most days! It will happen soon enough though. Until next time;).....

The Home Stretch

2012-01-22T14:40:00.000-08:00

There are many phrases used to describe the end of a chapter in life. However, I think what best fits then end of this one, the end of my pregnancy is "the home stretch". Why? Because that's literally what I'm doing. It seems that every 3-4 days I grow another few inches out. My three little stretch marks turned into more than I want to count over a 48 hr period last week. Before you comment, know that I'm using Maderma for stretch marks, Vitamin E oil, and BioOil...and I've come to terms that it's just going to happen. I laughed out loud on Friday when the two nurses who just saw me a couple of weeks ago, did a double take when I walked in. The visit went as planned, but I was told that we will ultrasound in two weeks to check the babies size. It seems the dr is worried that we may have a 9-10lb. boy on our hands if we go full term. If that's the case, a vaginal birth is out of the question, and a C-section will be scheduled. To be honest, I don't really care how we get him here...as long as it doesn't involve a natural, drug-free, vaginal birth of a 10lb. baby;) My only wish is that baby and Handsome are in the same room when the baby makes his first appearance.

When Handsome left this last time, it wasn't easy. Though only a for a few weeks, the absence has seemed so much harder this time. Perhaps a good dose of fear of the unknown mixed with knowing we are forever about to be changed is to blame. And let's not forget hormones and those new names we are soon to have...Mommy and Daddy;) He indulged me for a few photos before going back to Africa. I still miss him, but they helped.

Now, a few short weeks later, its hard to hold the laptop in my lap;) It's hard to hold anything in my lap because I don't really have one anymore! I'm content though, ready and waiting for the next few weeks to pass.

Pregnancy Update:

Far along: 35 weeks and 3 days
Weeks to go: 4 weeks and 4 days
Baby: est. 6lbs. currently
Weight gained: 28 lbs which again, I say is mostly fluid;)

From Our Growing Family to Yours, Merry Christmas

2011-12-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

Pie Crust Plans

2011-12-24T13:18:00.000-08:00

I don't think there has ever been a Christmas where I have been so thankful or blessed. I probably haven't felt this massive or hormonal either, but we won't talk about that. After gathering at 3 great celebrations with my grandparents, my parents, and Handsome's parents, there has been time to reflect. Looking back at the past 10 years of Christmas, so much has changed. It's overwhelming to see what God has done in our lives this year.

Looking around the baby's nursery, I find myself wondering what Mary really went through preparing for the birth of Jesus. Did she wish for certain things? Did she have an idea of what would happen during delivery? Did she feel prepared after visiting with Elizabeth? I wonder if she felt all His rolling around and kicking inside her and knew she'd miss it once He arrived.

On the days when I feel the least prepared, I think of her. If she did/could have planned it out like she may have wanted, I would bet that she didn't expect a stable would be the place she'd bring Him into the world. Wev'e talked to our family about our "birth plan", and our wishes surrounding delivery. Though, I keep thinking in the back of my mind that it's all "pie crust" plans.......easily made, easily broken. Thinking of Mary keeps me in check. She was a traveler, pregnant, leaning on the advice of her cousin, and I'm sure scared. Her plans weren't set, no beautiful nursery to come home to, she didn't know what specific supplies she would need, but God still took care of her. I have no doubt that God will take care of us. He already has! I'm blessed to be able to travel and lean on the advice of, not only my cousin, but my mom, sister, mother in law, and so many others. Though I do have some fear, there is a great plan in place, with contingencies! There is a beautiful nursery, that makes me well up almost every time I go in there and soon it will have the supplies I need.

Speaking of the nursery, I did take a few pics that I'm excited to share with you.

Love the soft leather trim on the bedding;)

The bookcase shows many antique finds, the green mason jars, binoculars, and vintage children's books.

A giraffe just like the one I had when I was little.

top: vintage map I bought in Amsterdam
bottom: a "scratch off" map, where you scratch off where you've been. Both need to be framed.

Fabric and grass rope...thanks Dad!!

We thought the flash card prints were very appropriate for the above the changing table. You have to be ALL of those things when changing diapers;)

Bebar the Elephant prints Handsome found in Paris (in French of course;)

And one of the first things I bought the baby...a crochet puppy, from Amsterdam.

I feel so blessed that I have this space to bring our baby home to. God has blessed us with a life, a son, and I feel that putting all the love I can into this room is a way I can show my gratefulness. Everything may not go as planned, and it won't be perfect, but I have no doubt that God will have His hand on us.

Random Catching Up;)

2011-12-08T07:02:00.001-08:00

Since returning from Paris, life has been a blur. I know, I know, I have no idea how busy I'll be once this baby gets here, but really, I haven't stopped running since I landed. Before I get into that though, I have to share my experience leaving the airport. It's pretty funny and I have to record it and share it. So, it doesn't take much lately for me to be a weepy mess. My Handsome has not had to experience that too much until this trip! Well, our last night there I had a meltdown for no apparent reason. It really wasn't funny. At the airport, however, I had another meltdown. Handsome was dropping me off, I was sad to be leaving him and crying like a 5 year old (or a 7 month pregnant woman). The funny part? He hugs me and says, " It's ok babe, just walk it off, walk it off." Now, before you get all crazy and defensive, you have to understand that my husband grew up living and breathing football. "Walking it off" is what their coaches would tall them when they were hurt or whatever. He meant it endearingly. I found it funny, cause on what planet could I "walk off"my hormones lol!?!?! Anyway, I thought it was funny. I'm pretty excited to see what he comes up with during labor and in parenting;)

When I got to Charlotte, NC for my layover I laughed when I realized my prenatal specialist was on my flight home. I was busted! For the record, my OB cleared me for the trip. I just figured I'd ask for forgiveness from the specialist. We spoke briefly and I told her I had an appointment the next day and would see her then. Monday morning came and after my examination, she said, "You do realize you're carrying about 8 extra pounds of fluid, right? Tell me that was your last trip." I laughed and said that it probably was.

So, I was home about 2 weeks and now I'm in Houston! My OB said this IS my last trip. I'm sitting in our hotel room, booking plane tickets home to MS for both me and Handsome, shopping a little online, and killing time until the stores I need to go to open. I plan on hitting up BHLDN and Anthropologie today! Kate Spade and several other stores in the Galleria, that I will not name, have already suffered my spending;) This little one and I are having quite a time! We shop till we drop, but we just drop a lot faster than before. I have to plan my shopping trips out. Anyway, before I head out, below are a few pics I wanted to share. Please excuse the quality, as they are all iphone pics and unedited.

My parent's dog, Bella is always upset when I leave. She's my little buddy, and is used to sleeping with me and sharing snacks when I'm there.

The day before Thanksgiving, half the family went with me to our 3D/4D ultrasound;) Below is our little Handsome. I can't wait to kiss his cheeks! In the photo above (left to right) is Trey, Kristin, Taryn, me, and my sister, Tennille.

Thanksgiving weekend is alway fun! Rival football teams in our area play each other, and this year our team dominated! I like to think it's because I was wearing this cute shirt;)

This last picture is what I wore yesterday. I just posted it, so my cute outfit wouldn't be wasted on strangers, lol. For Tayla Thomforde who is always wanting to know where I shop;)....necklace - Anthro last year, dress/tunic, and jeans - Gap Maternity, Cardigan (not maternity) - Chelsea + Violet, Dillards brand only, and super comfy Jessica Simpson jeweled flats.

Lastly, just some fun pregnancy facts and updates....

Far along: 29 wks and 1 day
Weeks to go: 10 wks and 6 days
Baby: my drs. are estimating he is 3-3.5 lbs, around 17 inches long, and perfect!
Weight gained: 20 lbs. (which I'm saying is mostly fluid;)
Nursery furniture is being delivered to MS today and I CAN'T WAIT to see it and share a pic with you!!!!! It won't be long now!

Hope you are all having a wonderful day!!!

Her.

2011-11-18T14:09:00.001-08:00

When Handsome first told me we were meeting in Paris, I said there are a few things that are a priority to me. I want to go to Versailles to see the Queen's Hamlet and I want to see HER. There we were, bundled up, camera in tow, going to see her. I was beyond excited;) Walking the hallway at The Lourve, I asked the attendant, "Where is She?" I didn't need to be specific, even she knew who I was talking about. Then there she was. Much smaller than I had pictured, but significant, nonetheless. She had meant so much to him. She was his muse, his love. Something about her made her more special to him than any other. I wondered if she knew what she meant to him and the significance this portrait of her would be to the world.

After 10 years of marriage, there have been times when it wasn't so great. I'm sure Handsome would agree. Overall, we mean the same things to each other. Something about him, so many things about him, makes my heart beam with pride to be by his wife. I've been constantly reminded how much he cares and loves me above all else. But today, I'm more than overwhelmed.

This trip had already been romantic and beautiful and everything I could have imagined and more. (Seriously, disgustingly romantic;) I'm sure our facebook friends are sick of us, lol) Walking the street near Notre Dame, looking at old postcards and books, it melted my heart when he choose two French prints of Bebar the Elephant for the nursery. Then we came to Pons des Arts, a bridge near the church, fixed with what appears to be thousands of padlocks. I was puzzled, and looked closer. On the locks were names, dates, messages of affirmation, all in the name of love. Handsome joked, "If these are proposals, I bet the size of the lock has a direct proportion to the size of the ring bought." I laughed and figured he was probably right. He offered to tie his shoe string on the bridge to symbolize our love, but I figured he should keep it;) An open display of love, it was beautiful to me. Little did I know that I had a surprise coming. He said he wanted to buy me something unique and delicate for our anniversary, my own padlock, if you will. It had to be French, and one of a kind. I was presented with this...

I know what she must have felt. Not that I didn't feel loved before, or anything like that. It's just I feel the significance of what we have become, what we are about to be. Never have I ever felt so loved and blessed and overwhelmed. One more day here in Paris, but forever in our own beautiful, God-given love story.

Dreaming....

2011-11-16T08:47:00.001-08:00

I never thought I'd get to Paris. This whole week I've been pinching myself, and waking up like a 5 yr old on Christmas morning everyday. I'm. finally. here.

It's not how I imagined it would happen - a surprise the week before our 10th wedding anniversary (I had less than 3 days to pack)

Not how I thought I'd be - I had always imagined myself really skinny with longer hair, buying up french dresses, instead Im almost 7months pregnant with our son, and buying french baby books and little hats;)

But it's absolutely perfection - I can't imagine being happier than this moment, but I know when baby Handsome gets here it's going to be even better;)

Thank you God, for giving me what I always wanted, and for making it so much more than I ever imagined.

10 Things I Love this Tuesday

2011-10-25T21:14:00.000-07:00

1. The bump....and all his bumping;)

2. Everything at Restoration Hardware Baby, and wanting to order this for the nursery ASAP!

3. My constant companion and bedfellow, Bella

4. Michael Kors Leg shine - crazy because it's winter, but its awesome. Think of it as solid moisturizer that smells like heaven! (it actually has a gardenia scent) Best part? The trial/travel size cost only $10!

5. The cooler air south Mississippi has been getting. My internal air conditioner is broken, so it's nice mother nature is compensating;) Thank goodness! I was considering going half naked for the duration of this pregnancy. NO ONE wants that.

6. My Grandma's cooking - There is nothing like fresh from the garden peas, potatoes, pecans....every Sunday;) It cures everything.

7. The swing my dad made me recently. It's so nice at the end of the day, to hang out with my nieces and nephews on the swing. He even made it big enough so we can swing together. I purposely requested it be wide enough that we could fit a few at a time on it for photography purposes;)

8. Zegrid - Were you aware that when some women become pregnant, that they also become dragons? I now breathe fire, seriously. I swear there are times I emit smoke from all the heartburn. Zegrid saves the day.

9. Vintage storybooks - I've been collecting them for a couple years now, anticipating a nursery. A few really good ones have made their way into my library-in-progress, including a "Adventures of Pooh" from 1918. CANNOT wait to take this shot with my sweet boy;)

10. This picture;) Melts my heart every. single. time.

Sweet Baby Boy - Meet Your Aunts and Uncles

2011-10-18T23:41:00.000-07:00

This past few weeks have been super busy for us. So much has happened, Mommy is playing catch-up. (I have a feeling this is becoming a trend.) While we've been waiting to see you and your little heart again, you father has been back working in Africa. It hasn't been fun. The only bright spot is the family we have around to keep us laughing. I want to introduce you to your family, and also let you know the role they have already been playing in your little life. I will do separate post for your grandparents and cousins, but for now, let's talk about your aunts and uncles. (in alphabetical order)

Uncle Lesley and Aunt Catherine: mom to Logan

Uncle Lesley is you dad's twin, and the older brother I never had. He's a soldier, a brave one, who has served his country for many many years now. He's spent time in overseas protecting us so we could have you, and I couldn't be prouder for you to have someone like him as your uncle. When your dad told him we were pregnant with you he said that it was the best news he had ever gotten. Last week he drove over 100 miles to see you at the ultrasound. You showed your muscles off to him, and it was a really special moment for all of us. I think you knew he was there.

This year has been special not only because we got you, but also because you have a new aunt! Your Uncle Lesley married Aunt Catherine just a few short months ago and that also gave you a new cousin, Logan. She will be an aunt for the first time because of you, and is super excited! She is already a great aunt and has been busy making you things and preparing for you to get here.

Uncle Joel and Aunt Mandy: mom and dad to Rylan, Dailyn, and Mikadyn

Growing up with your Uncle Joel was quite a childhood. He is responsible for several of my broken bones but more awesome memories than I can count;) Life around him is never dull, but be careful. Just this week he dressed up in a ninja costume and terrified your cousins....who are ALL under the age of 8. I almost hope they have nightmares and keep him up tonight (not really). He is responsible for dance parties, pranks, and all things that you're going to want to do, but probably shouldn't. For example, last April Fool's Day, he called your grandma and told her I was pregnant. I wasn't. She believed him. It was hilarious, but not a good joke. She was extremely angry and as a result didn't believe us at first when we really were. He's a little crazy and doesn't act his age, but we love him;)

The best thing Uncle Joel ever did was marry your Aunt Mandy. She will be one of the first people you meet, and she'll be the one with the camera. She and mommy have a lot in common. We are both fun, fabulous, blonde photographers. It has been a tremendous help having her around to help with my work during those months of sickness and hot weather. Its wonderful to have someone that thinks creatively the same like we do. Also, Aunt Mandy is just as fun as Uncle Joel and we love her just as much. She loves you already, has taken pictures of your growing in my belly and can't wait to meet you.

Uncle Tim and Aunt Tennille: mom and dad to Terek, Taryn, and Trey

Your Uncle Tim has played a pretty important role in your life already, as he is the one who introduced your father and I. Your dad and he have been friends for a really long time, EXCEPT on Thanksgiving. You see, unfortunately, your Uncle Tim is an Ole Miss fan. They are friends all year, but on that day MS State (the greatest team in the world and your father's alma mater) and Ole Miss play in the Egg Bowl. It's sad really. This is a major flaw in your uncle, but most of the time he's pretty fun to be around. Here is a bit of him. On the Friday night when your dad was on his way, your Uncle Tim texted me the following message...

*Tim: Wes wanted me to ask you if he can go to the huntn camp with me tomorrow?
Me: Ask him if he would like to be castrated upon his arrival. I have a feeling the answer to both is the same;).....Is he really wanting to go, or are you just tormenting your favorite sister-in-law?
Tim: I will need to contact my lawyer before maken a statement....Please tell my sweet, loving, most awesomest, wife to bring me a piece of your delicious pecan pie.

*I want to say that your father doesn't hunt at all...only fishes...and it's not hunting season...and I didn't change Uncle Tim's spelling;)

WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE how excited your Aunt Tennille is about you. I will make it official on here and say that she was the first family member I told (other than your father) that you were really on your way. Those first couple of months, she was more than my sister, she was my nurse, my housekeeper, my friend....everything. I even joked that she was more excited about you than I was, as if that was even possible! Now, on most nights, after your cousins are asleep, she drives over just to talk to you and feel you kick. Oh, and she drives to gas stations all around town just to find our favorite candy;)

Though your aunts and uncles aren't always close by, know that they are the ones God has placed in your life for a purpose. They love you and want what's best for you and, I know, will be there should you need them. They've already been a source of constant support while we are waiting for you to grow. I have no doubt that your uncles Lesley, Joel, and Tim, and aunts Catherine, Mandy, and Tennille will be the biggest cheerleaders in your life and will help mold you into the boy, and someday, the man you are meant to be.

Mamie + James

2011-10-17T05:59:00.000-07:00

It wasn't that long ago that I met Loren James. I now call her friend, and am super proud to post the photos I'm about to reveal! Today marks the official launch of her brand, Mamie + James at NY Bridal Fashion Week. We've had to keep these under wraps for months now and it's been killing me!!! So here they are....the lovely creations of Mamie + James.

Ultrasounds

2011-09-25T20:44:00.000-07:00

My last post announced that we were having a son. I had wanted to detail the day out, but it was such an emotional time that I couldn't write about it without breaking down. It wasn't that I wanted a girl, or that I am overly hormonal (well maybe that last one a little)....let me just tell you about that day.

It had been building in anticipation leading up to that Friday. Handsome was flying in from Africa, I was busily shopping and packing for my return trip back there with him, and had even managed to crate supplies, and finish with enough time to spend that Thursday at the beach;) All was well! Then comes the dreaded phone call from Handsome...."I may have to work in Africa on Christmas. We can talk about it when I get there." NOT what I wanted to hear. I have to be back in the U.S. to stay by the 8th of December per Dr's orders, so that meant us not having the holidays together. I focused on the appointment ahead and admittedly was nervous and excited just to see our baby.

It was Handsome's first visit to the baby doctor and I spent the ride explaining what would happen and how the appointment would go. We would see the ultrasound technician first and then see the doctor for the results, telling him to think of any questions he might have. Once at the ultrasound area, it became apparent that our family members joining us were all late. Which was perfect by me because it gave us time to be just the two of us with the baby. It was magical as always. I still cry every time I see and hear it. The family showed up just in time for the big reveal. I turned my head from the screen to watch his expression as the tech said, "It's a boy!". He smiled so big...and immediately ran out of the room with his cell phone! I found it all hilarious;) He was so proud to be calling and telling we were having a son. After saying goodbyes to our family, we continued onto to see the dr. After a long wait, I was told I'd have to stay put. The doctor said another ultrasound was needed, more test to be done. We need to have a few more check-ups of the baby's heart and he needs to be older when all of it happens. I was not going back to Africa with Handsome this time. I was devastated. This was not how this was supposed to go. I'm supposed to spend my pregnancy with my husband, not on a pull out couch at my moms. All I had wanted was to be on that plane back to my house, to nest, organize, hang pictures, take pictures and be barefoot and pregnant there. I spent so much time trying to get to Africa, and now it seems it's being taken away from me.

Our lives feel a little like an ultrasound right now. You can see a picture, but it's fuzzy and muffled. Still, the sight makes your heart melt and in time things will be clearer. I have to know that God has a plan in all of this, and that there is a reason why I need to be here. The health of our baby, this precious little life, is the most important thing, and if this is what we have to do, then so be it.

I will say that this little guy is moving all over, and kicks mommy pretty often;) It's pretty stinkin amazing. No names just yet. For now I'm calling him Handsome #2. Just one week away from being halfway through!

A Son

2011-09-18T08:11:00.000-07:00

People smile and tell me I'm the lucky one, and we've just begun,
Think I'm gonna have a son.
He will be like she and me, as free as a dove, conceived in love,
Sun is gonna shine above.

And even though we ain't got money, I'm so in love with ya honey,
And everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the morning when I rise, you bring a tear of joy to my eyes,
And tell me everything is gonna be alright.
.....Now I see a family where there once was none, now we've just begun,
Yeah, we're gonna fly to the sun.

Lyrics taken from "Danny's Song" by Kenny Loggins

Baby of Mine...a post with pictures;)

2011-09-12T18:53:00.000-07:00

I've been avoiding blogging solely because I felt you deserved some pics by now;) Here are a few my sister in law was so nice to take of me. I keep thinking of that song on Dumbo, probably because I feel so massive, and that movie is about elephants. Though I do love that song. Hope you enjoy the set below

Titus

2011-09-08T19:29:00.000-07:00

Just before I left for Africa for the first time, I received some of the best news. My cousin, Polly, was expecting. Admittedly, I cried right then and there in the restaurant saying goodbye to her. (I'm such a crybaby!) It's just that I was SO happy for her, my cousin, my sweet baby sister. I've watched her grow up, listened to boy problems, stood by her side as her maid of honor, and today, was ecstatic to photograph a moment in her pregnancy. To make things EVEN BETTER, we get to share this time being pregnant;) It's been wonderful shopping and swapping stories and ideas with her. I couldn't imagine a better way to spend part of my summer. If weather permits, we will be photographed together next week, so I hope to have lots of pics to share! Enjoy the few of her below.

Precious Titus Joseph, you are going to have one of the best mothers in the world. Your Auntie Candra loves you and can't wait for you to get here either!

The Love You Came From

2011-08-20T08:14:00.000-07:00

My Sweet Baby,

I'm sure at some point you will ask and I'll tell you all over again how you came to be. As I've watched other children around us, at the market, at the creche (orphanage), even at home in the US, it becomes so much more important to me to tell you the love you've come from. You need to know from the start how your father and I love you already, and can't wait for you to get here. Well, maybe your father can, lol. I think he might be a little terrified at the moment! I think my moments of terror might come a bit later...you know, closer to birth;)

Your father and I met after being introduced by your Uncle Tim. There were lots of love letters, and voicemails, and passing in the hallway at the junior college, and then one really bad date. Time passed and we met again and on the next "first date" I immediately knew;) Your father said he knew from the start. (You'll eventually find your father thinks he knows everything;) I kissed him first, but he will deny that and he's wrong. Three months later we were engaged.

When I married your father, I married adventure. We almost immediately moved across the country away from everything we knew. It was the best decision. Being on our own made us rely on each other. Then after California, it was Texas, then Cali again, then Texas, then Africa! All of the moving and transition makes for quite an adventure!

But you should know the most important journey started even before we were married. My opposite, he first made me travel to places within myself. He helped me (still does) realize the person I was and who I wanted to be. That's what the right person does for you...they help you grow into the person you are supposed to become. We are coming up on our 10th wedding anniversary this year and are thrilled to have you as another reason to celebrate.

My entire life, growing up, I envisioned this "perfect marriage". Well, let Mom be the first to tell you that our marriage isn't perfect. There's lots of fighting like cats and dogs, making up, cursing the other under our breath, laughing at each other, encouragement, stubbornness, compromise, and handholding. The marriage might not always be perfect but, the love behind it is. I am strong-willed, creative, emotional, fiery, and I like to think fierce;) Your father is calm, quiet, loyal, patient in everything, and kind. I yell and kick and scream and he calms me and shows me the big picture again. In return, when he's so busy with work, I remind him to slow down, have fun, and see priorities. He is my opposite, my love, my perfect other half, and I am his. Having you is the result of this love and relationship we have together, as it should be.

We hope to show you that this love you are born into is not only, beautiful, hard, scary, and victorious, but most of all it has resulted in the greatest adventure we could have ever embarked on....you.

Catching Up

2011-07-27T22:02:00.000-07:00

So it seems that I'm feeling a bit better. The mornings are worse, but most afternoons I'm pretty good. I've been thinking about all I'm wanting to share on the blog and with others in general. This blog has pretty forth coming and blunt about most things, but when strangers already want to know personal details from you and then willingly share their gruesome and VERY personal experiences, it makes you take a step back. So, I've proposed a list of, well, we will say promises. Perhaps somewhat of a mutual agreement between us;) Ok, here goes...

1. I promise not to share any gross details about the following if you don't....

constipation, mucus plugs, vomiting, bodily functions that happen during or around labor....you get the picture.

2. I promise not to make my blog all about baby. Though is does consume everything now, I solemnly swear that all post will not be about baby stuff;)

3. I do promise to share all the little lovelies that are making my pregnant days so special. For example, names I'm currently loving, cute maternity outfits, cravings...the fun stuff;) In return, I ask that you not bash those said names, outfits.... It's not in the best interest of your health to be ugly to an expecting mother!

4. I promise not to share way too revealing photos of my body. I won't be doing naked belly shots, or any type of naked shots during this time. They can be beautiful, but they're not for me. In return, I'd love to have any links to photos that you find lovely;)

5. Lastly, at least for now, I promise to keep it honest, real, beautiful, and even sometimes ugly;). It's so important for me to document it all right now. Though, you might have to endure more than your share of extra long post from me. I do want to share SO MUCH of what I'm thinking and feeling and going through and it finally seems that I'm feeling up to blogging again!

So, I'll start right now!!!!! Things I'm loving right now......

My neices giving me baby names...all from the Disney Channel. I have turned down Justin and Justine more than once;) I love seeing their little world mesh with their new cousin.

How excited our mother's and my sister are about EVERYTHING. It cracks me up! Seriously, there's a cheering session when I go a day without vomiting;) (For the record, I join that one.)

Wrought iron baby beds

Simple, classic, non-overused family names including: Sarah, Claire, Isla, Phillip, Brooks, and Wesley

The "old wives" gender tests, we've done them all! Who needs an ultrasound when you have a needle and thread, #2 pencil, some drano, and a Chinese calendar around the house? By the way, they ALL say the same thing! I'm not sharing though, there's too many people with too much money riding on this just yet. We will let everyone know in a few weeks;)

I guess that's all for now! There should be fun pics in the next post as we are prepping for Handsome's brother's wedding and I have a FABULOUS royal blue dress;)

The BEST picture I've ever taken

2011-07-11T21:17:00.000-07:00

was one I didn't even press the shutter for. I've been SO SUPER EXHAUSTED AND SICK. The Dr. says I'm anemic, but my thyroid levels look good and so does our baby. The baby, that we may very well welcome on Valentine's Day. I have so much to share, but in reality, I'm only good for a few hours a day. Most of my days are spent in bed, with my 7 yr old neice, being the best nurse ever;) I just wake up to eat and pee. So for now, I will just share this. SO MUCH MORE to come;) I'm so thankful for your comments, messages, texts, and phone calls. It's so wonderful to see how many people love us and this baby already;)

My "New" Creative Reality

2011-06-24T01:06:00.000-07:00

So, these last few days, really weeks have been a blur. I have been beside myself waiting to get out of Angola, as you can tell by my previous posts;) There are many reasons, but the most important by far was I wanted to get to civilization to get one of these.

I was convinced I wasn't pregnant, but my husband (who apparently knows everthing;) was convinced otherwise. To make matters worse, I couldn't remember when my last period was! I could pinpoint it within a week and a half, but because it was such a crazy time, I could not pinpoint the days. Was I late? Who knew?? Truely I thought I was stressing myself out and my new hobby of running was postponing my monthly visitor.

So, I arrive in Dubai last Sunday and believe it or not, found the above in the airport (FYI...The Dubai airport is HA-MAZING! I could have shopped in there for days...seriously.)

The results showed in seconds,

AND.....

I called Handsome to tell him Happy Father's Day.

After 10 years with Handsome, we are getting an assistant!

WOW....I still have no words for that moment or for the rest of them that have followed since, for that matter. I arrived in Amsterdam on Monday afternoon and did a second test, just to be sure. Of course, it was also positive. So now as I head home to the states tomorrow, I'm bringing home a little extra souvenir. My trip will be filled with Dr's appointments and nausea and all the fun things that go along with this;)

We truly are happy to be expecting a baby;) I think that God has blessed me with something that I don't deserve and I'm overwhelmed by this blessing! I think about how His timing is perfect, and that there are so many of my friends who are waiting and praying for children. I feel honored, blessed, and humbled by this gift. God's so good to us about even the little details! He knows how much I love a good story and I think it's awesome I found out in the middle of Saudi Arabia on Father's Day;)

It's almost perfect, you know, with the exception of all the nausea and the lack of desire for Haagen Daaz, which up to this point I was dying to get my hands on. It was SO SAD to go to the counter, and NOT be able to order without vomiting. They say this all passes, and I hope so, but I do love feeling it all happening! It's crazy to see my body physically changing already! I feel gross, but it feels good. I worry about all of the things going on being normal. I worry about taking care of myself to have the best, most healthy baby. I worry about all this rambling being annoying, lol!

Anyway, I would like to welcome you to my "New" creative reality! It just got more beautiful and complicated and creative;)

The Good Life

2011-06-19T01:38:00.000-07:00

Today I'm sitting here, passing the time until I leave;) Just a few more hours!!! I'm so excited I can hardly stand it! It's becoming apparent day after day how blessed I am to live this life I'm in. A friend shared this song with me and I wanted to share it with you. My new anthem;)
Good Life by One Republic
Love you all...see you soon!

I'm Still Here.....For Now.

2011-06-12T07:27:00.000-07:00

I know, I know, it's been a while. To be frank, writing hasn't been on my priority list. I've been spending my days shooting and shopping for gifts for my family when I go home and organizing my trip home to make the most of it. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT! One week from today I leave Africa for Dubai, then Amsterdam, the London, and then.........Houston, TX. I breathe more easily the closer it gets;) I get choked up thinking about how they say "Welcome home." when you exit customs in the U.S. I won't return again until mid August.

So much is planned between now and then that I worry that it will fly by. I'm already not looking forward to coming back here, lol. Normally, actually never, do I use foul language, but Africa is F*$%g hard! I love it, but I hate it. Just yesterday I was at the arts and crafts market. As I was leaving, I ran into three of my neighbors. Their wives are gone until fall and we exchanged conversation about how they were, showing our purchases. We all left at the same time and they pulled out for home behind me. We were stuck in traffic about a mile down the road, when my driver panics. He motions behind us at their car, as he's backing up, making an out for us. I see a very intoxicated man trying to bash their windows in and get in their SUV! None of us can move. Finally, my driver is able to get through on the righthand side and take a side street to get me out. Their driver was able to follow and get us all to safety.

ONE. CAR. OFF.

Oh how I was thankful he chose the car with three grown men instead of mine! They were fine. No one was seriously injured, but the car sure took a beating. That gives you an idea of what we deal with here. Just because we are who we are.

Being stuck here without many friends also has an effect. Those of us that are here, are each other's lifeline. Two of my BFF's left recently and another is leaving this week.;( There's really just two of us left. A friend emailed the other day "...there are times I feel your loneliness through your posts." That's never my intention, but it's definitely there. I do feel like these past few months have been like running a marathon. The other day there was a quote about running on pinterest. It said something like

"mile 2: you think you're gonna die. mile 5: you think you're dead. mile 10: you are actually dead, but you're alive again. The old you is gone and a better version is on the way with every step."

I feel dead. I need to die though, metephorically speaking of course;) to prepare myself for something greater. The old me is definitely weary. She might even be going down kicking and screaming on the inside, lol. The new me, a thinner, wiser, stronger version, is emerging and it's a good thing. It's happening one day at a time. That's how I'm having to deal with it all. So, for now, I will just count the days;) 7 to go.

Ella

2011-05-26T02:57:00.000-07:00

There are days (like when the electricity goes off at the market and rats run over your feet), that you search for some type of normalcy, at least the normal that you had. This "new normal" can be a bit much to take sometimes. Though it amazes me everyday the beauty there is in all the filth and hardship. This is such a beautiful place, full of beautiful and brave people.

In my search for "normal" I have been taking a few sessions. One such is my lovely neighbor, Princess Ella. I knew the moment we met we were going to be friends;) She's God's way of helping me not miss my neices so much. I truly pray my future daughter looks something like her;) Enjoy the photos below, featuring our furry friend Duke.

Just one.

2011-05-15T04:13:00.000-07:00

This past week was overwhelming to say the least. (Seems thats a theme lately.) A friend of mine had to go to China and asked if I would keep her 3 children while she was away. So this week was filled with lunches and backpacks, school programs and tears (mostly mine), but it was also filled with smiles, and window drawing and hide and go seek;) I'll post pics soon, but most of them are a surprise for their mom, so you will have to wait!

In the mean time, I was invited to visit and photograph at one of the local orphanages. It was life changing. I really have no words for the wave of emotions that overcame me when I walked through the gates. It's still a bit much for me to talk about without getting emotional. One thing I can say though is that I definitely will be taking a bigger role to help these little ones. The calendars for them are in the works, so if you or anyone you know would like one, let us know. Again, I'm using all money from my sessions here to buy the calendars so sales will go directly back to the kids. Right now we are working on getting malaria tests for all the kids. Let me introduce you to a few that you could help;) This is Wesley. A precious kid who was found, as an infant, in a trash can. He loves rings;) He sat forever playing with my friend, Lisa's rings.

I can't remember this little girl's name, but we are working to get here past a bad bout of Malaria. This young girl help rescue her baby sister from their mother. The mom was convinced that the infant was a witch. She began chaining the girls in the closet and cutting the baby. They are both doing much better now in the care of this small orphanage.

Here is a bit of what we do there. There are some that visit periodically when they can. Most play with the children and hold the babies. They crave attention and love. There's never enough to go around. Two of the ladies are nurses and visit weekly for wound care and whatever needs to be done. There is my friend, Lisa, who also visits weekly, usually on alternate days than the nurses, to check in on the sick. I plan on doing the same.
This week we gave out vitamins and hugs. We line the children up for their meds, but then once they get their first portion, they quickly run and get back in line;) Thinking we won't notice they came back for seconds.
They are so grateful for whatever you have to give, even if it's love. In the photo above, Lisa had just arrived in the room. They all went to her, saying in English, "cuddle me." Words can't describe how I felt hearing that over and over again from their tiny voices, knowing that they don't have anyone else that loves them.
This is one of the ladies that helps care for them.

They thought my necklace was candy;)

It's amazing, with so little, they are so happy. I've learned so much this week. Between caring for the children and visiting the orphanage, its so apparent that there's lots of work to be done. It's overwhelming thinking of what's actually feasable. I found this quote earlier today, and its very applicable.

I'm gonna start with just one.

I was his Mother.

2011-05-08T02:05:00.000-07:00

I picked him up 10 years ago and immediately fell in love. It looked like you dipped his tan tail in black;) His brother joined us 5 days later and instantly we were a little family. A year later, we got their sister. With no human children, they were ours, always happy to see us. He made it through 4 transcontinental trips, lived in 4 states, watch both Handsome and I graduate college. He made it through earthquakes, fires, hurricanes, swiped a whole lot table scraps, watched more than his share of college football and girl movies. I'm sure he shook glitter off a few times too.

Rest in peace my sweet Bruiser.

2011-05-05T02:45:00.000-07:00

I keep reciting these words over and over. Africa hasn't been easy. Through all the bad days I just tell myself...

"This won't last forever. You will adjust."

"It's still worth it to be here."

"Only 50ish days until you can go back home."

"Just think, without Africa you wouldn't have this..." (see photo below of my new lovas) "It's still the right decision. Happy people aren't happy because the have the best. They are happy because they make the best of what they have."

Thought for the day...

2011-05-04T10:51:00.000-07:00

Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken, just as having a camera does not make you a photographer.

An African Easter

2011-04-24T09:48:00.000-07:00

Happy Easter from my compound to yours;) Today I am reminded more than ever of God's love for us. Even though we are 9000 miles + from our families, we are never far from HIS love and an "adopted" family placed in our lives.

T.I.A.

2011-04-23T12:32:00.000-07:00

Most days here aren't that bad. You get up, go about your day, run your errands, come home, cook, go to bed. Now there are differences, but usually they are tolerable.

Then there are days like today.

We all have them. Every single one of us here can look at our fellow expats and see the look. The one that says T.I.A. It stands for "This is Africa." or for us "Tougher in Angola". There are lots of things that we deal with that the average person does not. Though it's beautiful, it's not easy here.

For starters, though I have a beautiful home that I love, when it rains, I do not sleep. If it's raining on the outside, it's going to be raining on the inside, and I'm not talking about tears (well, sometimes). My bottom floor of the house has flooded 7 times in 4 weeks. It's kind of become habit to put out the buckets and crates and towels at night, just in case. And as long as that holds up, I'm fine. Today it rained for the first time in my new studio. I wasn't prepared. I kept thinking to myself, "Um...God, didn't we agree that this area was off limits to the indoor fountains?" T.I.A.

Then at the market, I was loading a case of drinks, in glass bottles, into my cart and the packing slipped. The 24 bottles shattered to the floor sending glass and rootbeer through the cart, to the ground. Of course I had already paid for it, AND there were fifteen people behind me (not an exaggeration), AND a man with a broom and a cashier shouting at me in Portuguese. All I could think about was how dirty this place was and how the glass in my fingers was going to give me some disease. The no air condition, the smell of the people, the fact that I had paid $17 for 4 tomatoes and there was money wasted on the floor.... I walked out with my sticky flip flops, to be mobbed by children wanting money, and it was all I could do to keep my composure and get home. T.I.A.

Now, of course, there are many benefits for us to be here, and there are others having a much harder time that I am curently. It's just that some days those are really hard to see. God is teaching me to be stronger. I just know it. Tomorrow is Easter, and mostly because of all of this lovely rain, we will be spending it at home. Just like on the very first Easter morning, tomorrow is a new day full of purpose and beauty in this life we are living. It may be hard for others (and sometimes even me) to see, but I know it's the right thing. T.I.A.

"Sit Down, Keep Your Mouth Shut, and Enjoy the Ride"

2011-04-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

The same scenario has played over and over in my life. Good times and bad, my life plays out like film on a projector. I see myself get to a place where I’m comfortable, and God sends me a message.

“Let’s go higher.”

I get shoved out of my comfort zone, kicking and screaming, until I realized that where I’m headed is so much better than where I’ve been.

Marriage- Check

College- Check

Moving- Check

Dream jobs- Check

Cancer- Check

Africa- Check

Through every frame, He proves to me that HIS plans are so much better than mine. In turn, I’ve learned to do less kicking and screaming. I’ve learned to recognize those messages He sends and try to respond with more flexibility. You know, sit down, keep my mouth shut, and enjoy the ride;)

When we were asked to make this move to Angola, I wondered what God was doing. It’s not wrong to wonder. I was genuinely excited about the new possibilities ahead. Though there were many days of uncertainty while we waited the year and a half to get here, God was teaching me to trust again.

The monologue would play in my head.

“God, I know you know what you’re doing, but could you at least give me a hint?”

“Father, I know you haven’t forgotten me, but I’m weary. I’m just not seeing your plan.”

“Lord, I know YOU know we’ve been delayed again! Is there something I’m not learning? Something you’re trying to teach me or show me? Help me understand.”

It may not have been weekly, or even monthly, but ever so often, something would happen and HE would whisper, “This is why you’re still here. I promise I have the very BEST for you, you just have to trust me.”

The monologue changed.

“Ok, God. I will try to keep my mouth shut.”

And that’s what I’ve tried to do since I’ve made it here to Africa. I’ve been trying to listen to see what direction I should take in terms of my photography. There are many opportunities here, many of them are quite lucrative, but I’ve decided that what I do here can’t be about how much money I make. It needs to be about how much of a difference I make.

He has sent me another message.

I have opportunities to benefit 2 different orphanages and an organization that provides water and vaccinations here in Angola. This is where my camera will be put to use. If everything goes well, I will be providing promotional work, calendars for sale, and photos for these areas that so desperately need help. If you are looking for an appointment here, in Angola, for family sessions, my time will be limited. It will be first come, first serve, with all profits going back into these charities.

A quote I found the other day sums up exactly how I'm currently feeling.

“When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would have not a single bit of talent left and could say, I used everything you gave me.”
– Erma Bombeck

If you would like to be involved, you may contact us via this blog, or email me here.

Julianna

2011-04-07T13:36:00.000-07:00

It has been two short weeks here in Africa, and I’m finally starting to settle in. One big help in that process is Julianna. When you accept the offer to come here, it is highly suggested and recommended that you employ someone local to work around the house. Usually you ask around, and go through an interview and then a trial process. We were blessed in that the decision for our embrigada was made long ago.

My friend, Victoria, called me and explained that she and her family were being relocated to China. She was concerned for her embrigada, Julianna. She had been so good to her family and to another friend’s family before her, and she wanted to find a home for her when they left. I was happy to have Julianna join us.

I had heard of her before. Many of the other wives are indebted to her for training their housekeepers. She has taught all the others in my “gated community” on how to iron, do laundry, scrub floors, etc. When she first came to my house, it was a beautiful site. She walked into the compound and the other embrigadas came out of the other houses, so excited to see her. She was a celebrity;)

Julianna is in her mid thirties, but her face and body reflects many more years. She is a mother of five, and their age’s stair-step from one to ten years old. Last year she and her husband welcomed their first daughter, after three boys. They couldn’t have been happier to have Georgina, named after her father George. Three weeks later, her husband complained of sickness. Two days later he died, leaving Julianna and the children on their own.

One of her pupils moved in with her to help when he passed. That’s how much they love her. She has given them a job, which in this country, means a new life. So when she lost part of hers, they stepped in to fill the gap.

Today I asked about her headdress (I noticed that none of the others wear one), and she explained that in 16 days she will remove it. In 16 days it will be a year since his death, a year that she has spent in mourning. She seemed relieved as we communicated today with her broken English and my broken Portuguese. Julianna giggled as I took her picture today and showed her photos of my family. You can see the weariness in her eyes, but there’s fire there too. She has been singing all day and it’s as beautiful as she is.

Progress

2011-04-04T05:23:00.000-07:00

So, I'm almost done putting away all the clothes and supplies. Handsome doesn't understand why it's taken me so long, but I tell him, "I shopped and packed this stuff in 6 months. It's going to take me longer than a week to put it all where it belongs!" He's teasing me mostly;) I didn't think I would have too much of a problem, because I do have a TON of storage space in this house. However, its the volume of stuff I have that is the issue. Do I know where the Clorox wipes go? Yes, in the laundry room. But where do I put 18 containers of Clorox wipes? It goes on and on from there, from toothpaste to ziplock bags to hair products. So, it comes down to having a couple of each thing in their appropriate places, and the rest stored nearby. I can only imagine what I will do when the ship gets here with the other 6500 lbs of my stuff! (that number isn't an exaggeration, BTW) The good thing is that I can see the light at the end of a long supply tunnel and then I get to work in here;)

This is my new studio;) It has its own bathroom and a little nook space and I can't wait to organize and create in here!!! BTW, I'm already plotting what to write in paint on those beams going down the wall. I love it so much, even with the leaky air conditioner. Wish me luck!

Good Idea / Bad Idea : An African Version

2011-03-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

Good Idea:

flashlights and lots of batteries The electricity goes off everyday, sometimes several times a day. It may be off a minute or an hour or three (usually not three), but you will lose power. And if you lose power, and you're in the shower, you have less than 2 minutes to rise your hair before the water goes out.

Bad Idea:

Walking outside to your trash can while not wearing shoes I share my "gated community" with lizards, and not the tiny ones you see back home in MS. They are scared of you and fast as lightening. When they see you, they RUN...sometimes across your foot.

Good Idea:

Misquito Nets and lots of OFF.

Bad Idea:

Walking in the afternoon without saturating your legs with spray and realizing your forgot to take your malaria meds.

Good Idea:

DRESSING ROOM! (That deserves all caps;)

Bad Idea:

Dressing in said dressing room, without checking to see if the blinds are up, OR if there are workers outside.

Good Idea:

Having a driver or chauffeur

Bad Idea:

Forgetting to tell the driver he can go home, and it's 6:45 p.m. when you remember.

Good Idea:

Putting a bold piece of artwork with a pale, plain, yet cozy, living area.

Bad Idea:

This piece of artwork, we thought we were getting in the house.

Good Idea:

Another piece of artwork.

Bad Idea:

The artwork we actually got in the house.

For the record, we don't get to choose. I personally thought this was better, though she kinda looks a little bloated.

Good Idea:

Climbing stairs.

Bad Idea:

These stairs. There are sometimes when I go up them, that I really think I might die.

Good Idea:

Moving to Angola

Bad Idea:

Not getting here sooner;)

I'm Writing This From the Future

2011-03-27T16:22:00.000-07:00

We started with a BANG! Straight out of the airport and into our home unpacking on Thursday. Which BTW it's really odd getting on a plane on a Wednesday morning and getting off of that same plane on a Thursday morning some hours later. SO.....I literally flew into the future. Surely some of you are imagining me walking around, asking myself, "Now, where did I put that day?" We've been SO busy and I've been so off that I haven't known what the time or the day was at any given moment. Handsome had to remind me that today was Sunday. So, we landed on Thursday and had dinner with friends that night, Friday night was Poker Night in our compound (we all get together, play, and the money goes to the orphanage), then Saturday night was The Spring Affaire for the American Women's Association, where I was asked to photograph the event some time ago. Then today was a party in our honor, celebrating our arrival to Angola. Phew! I'm beyond exhausted. I admittedly didn't take one photo until Saturday. Exhaustion won.

Saturday I arrived at the Hotel Talatona to view my photo set up and immediately felt I was no longer in Africa. It was SO BEAUTIFUL! Then I went to the market with Tina, and immediately remembered I was in Africa;) I am going to have to sharpen my tresspassing photography skills in the future to show you that! I was able to catch a couple... We exchanged our US dollars for Kwanzas...they are so colorful and lovely;) And that bill there is worth $5.00, I think. Still working on the exchange stuff.

Its lllegal to photograph anything public, so these were shot on the fly with my iphone. Have no idea what this meat is, but there were whole legs/thighs and other various body parts for sale. I wanted SO BADLY to photograph the fish, but the workers wouldn't get out of the way. There were so many crazy looking fish, big and little, and the pile was topped with baby sharks! I do have my reciept from the store though;) Again, don't ask....Tina got my money out and paid around $50 (I think.) After the market, we went home to dress for the blacktie event at the hotel. It was a wonderful night that raised several thousand dollars for the orphanage. Stay tuned for photos of how the money is contributed, as I will be documenting that as well. I plan on photographing the children for a calendar. People will be able to purchase them with all profits to go back to the orphanage. Can't wait to get started!!!

Here are a few photos of the hotel and event...

Victoria sits in for a test shot;) They were there for charity....

I was there for dessert;)

No idea what this was, but it was delicious! I've decided not to ask what things are, and just try them;)

The ladies heading up the AWA.

Robbie and Victoria sit in. We are currently plotting on how to steal the African artwork hung behind them;)

The photographer's lovely assistants;) The Spring Affaire, went off almost perfectly with everyone's help. I was excited to be a part.

And then there was today. As most of you know, we waited over a year and a half to get the proper credentials to move here. Our friends, the ones who helped with paperwork, helped me plan my supply list, called and encouraged and cried with me when bad news came again, took photos of my house to make me smile....threw the best "Welcome Home" party for us. Tina, Robbie, and Victoria planned for a big BBQ, Tracy manned the grill and we had the best time. It was wonderful to have such great food and friends...finally all together.

Love these girls;) I might get us all those BFF necklaces, lol.

Well, it's Monday here and most of you are still in Sunday. Technically I'm writing this in the future, so FYI, your Monday is looking pretty fabulous. You get up, turn up the radio, sing into your hair brush, and head off to your destination with great optimism! It's going to be a great day for both of us;)

Africa Day 1 - The Arrival

2011-03-24T23:33:00.000-07:00

So today was the day! After all the waiting, it was understandable that there was no sleeping the night before. At 5:30, all finished, me and Jesus just sat there those last 30 minutes just thinking of all that has led up to this day and praying that it would all go smoothly.

At 6:00 we were up and dressed and loading two bellcarts with crates. The drivers to the airport were there early and soon we were on our way. The airport was crazy, and resulted in us being the LAST people to go through security. The left less than 10 minutes to call family to say goodbyes;( I cried as we boarded the plane.

On the plane, we had a minor inccident with one of the rudest people I have ever met. There had been a seating mix-up and this guy was letting everyone know that Handsome was in his seat. Once the plane personel came to visit I let them know (very politely) that I WAS NOT going to be spending the next 15 hours next to this guy. Thankfully a few good Samaritans exchanged seats and we were on our way. It occurred to me later that I hope this isn't someone Handsome is going to have to work with. Time will tell, I guess. The flight was rather uneventful. We watched a few movies and slept mostly. The last 1.5 hours I was so nervous about our next hurdle. The last few families to come in to Angola had not had an easy time in the airport. Many had been searched and had all their crates searched and had been taxed hundreds of dollars on whatever the security officers deemed taxable. Let's face it, there would be no blending in with me and Handsome and our 28 crates. I just prayed that we would have an easy time.

First, let me explain the process at the airport. The plane lands and you exit and are escorted to a bus that brings you into the terminal. This can be hectic as everyone is anxious to get through customs and is being packed on the bus. It immediately smells like the worst BO you have ever smelled. At the terminal, you immediately get in line for customs. (the smell is better;) and wait your turn. Then around the corner is baggage claim. There are carousels just like in airports in the States. After you get your luggage, you must pass through an x-ray scanning station. This is where they can search your things and tax you. Once you pass this point, you're in the clear to meet your party.

We had been waiting for about 30 minutes when Handsome went forward. They stamped his passport and waved him through. I was about to go forward when I was stopped by a guard. He spoke to me in Portuguese and motioned for me to wait. I froze, not really sure of what was happening, but then I saw her. A very pregnant Spanish woman was coming forward. She had been separated from her husband on the bus and he was waiting on the other side of customs. Once I got through and to baggage claim, a good bit of our crates were already off of the carousel. Handsome told me that two of our friends were coordinating the loading and cars on the outside and it would be my job to start heading their way while he waited on the rest of our stuff. I knew it was best, because I couldn't be lifting all the crates, and the guards are usually nicer to me than to him, but I was scared of what would happen with the searching and taxing. I started with two carts/four crates and headed toward the door. A female guard was there and asked me in Portuguese what I was carrying. I told her just food and clothes, and that I was moving here today. She waved me past the scanning area. I only breathed a small sigh of relief, knowing that though she let 4 go through, she may not let the next 24. I met our friends and passed on the 4 crates for them to load and headed back to get more. Time and time again, she waved me pass and my heart got lighter! I couldn't believe they weren't even scanning my stuff! At the last, were the 3 ice chest with meat in them. She stopped me.

"Carne?", she asked.
"Sem.", I answered.

She asked me to scan them and waved me through. With Handsome behind me we had gotten through without ANY of our stuff being searched!!! With everything loaded, we met our driver, Oswaldo, and to our house we went! It was just as beautiful as I remembered, AND my internet and phone had been hooked up! Tina, Robbie, and Victoria helped me unpack my groceries and most of my supplies. Paula and Julianna, Robbie and Victoria's embrigadas (housekeepers) helped clean the floors and bathrooms and took out the trash as we opened things up. Last night, as our friends and new neighbors continued to stop in and Tina and Tracy grilled hamburgers for us, my nerves calmed and exhaustion set in. We laid down in the air condition and under our misquito net and it just felt good. It felt like, for the first time in a year and a half, we were home.

MAMIE + JAMES

2011-02-28T21:03:00.000-08:00

I announced a few weeks ago that I wouldn't be taking any appointment in the US until June, but that hasn't stopped me from a few prior commitments. Today was one such fabulous appointment, and my clients were...well...perfection! They were stunning, quiet, and did almost exactly as I wished. Of course they weren't people, but the lovely creations of Loren James of MAMIE + JAMES. I had contacted them about purchasing a garter for a friend and before it was over, an entire box of lovlies were on their way to me to photograph! Below is the result of MCR and MAMIE + JAMES! Look for them soon in a store near you!

*****UPDATE: You can only orders these garters directly from the designer, Loren James. Email all inquiries to
hello@mamieandjames.com.

10 Things I Love This Thursday

2011-02-24T16:17:00.000-08:00

1. These pillows on Etsy. Its definitley on my list of things to make while I'm in Africa;)

1. This hair. It's kind of an old trend, but seeing as I can't do my own bleaching in Angola, it seems to ba a good fit for me! The colorist matches color to your roots and blends down to get the effect. I LOVE this version of it;) 3. The latest apps for iPad and iPhone. The must haves include Flipboard. This iPad only app will change the way you view social medial and magazines. Its everything in one place and beautiful! Wall Street Journal, Forbes, Elle, Sephora, Williams-Sonoma....you name it they have it and its free! The others are apps for both two filming apps 8mm and ReelDirector. I soon will have a video to show you;)

4. Collection III of the Florabella Textures. LOVING these right now. They add a fun, artistic touch to photos;) Here are a few of my favorites...

5. The fact that I've made my last major grocery trip for Africa. Still a freezer/cold stuff trip right before the plane, but I don't have to buy anymore canned goods!

6. My cousin Lauren's blog. I've always loved it, but she's blogging daily now (something I aspire to do)! So much fun good stuff over there;)

7. Window markers and crayons. Under $4, they make great art tools for your windows. I wrote Handsome a Valentines' Day message on our windows this year;)

8. Jenga. I know, I know, such an old game! However, a client asked to be photographed with their Jenga game. She told me the loser has to either draw on a tile or write a message. So they have years of memories captured on their game. I just love these images and this couple;)

9. My new glasses! The world is clear and sharp again!!

10. Old family pictures;) I've been scanning a lot lately, wanting to make sure I have all I want before we go. My parents recently remodeled and I stole, I mean borrowed, pictures of us growing up. I didn't have any, not one!

This one is a personal favorite. My sister is holding me hostage, I mean reading to me. She did this pretty often. She always wanted to "play school", but somehow she was ALWAYS the teacher and my brother and I were ALWAYS in detention. There are actually about 5 different pictures of a similar nature to this one, where she is killing us, I mean reading to us. I have proof! Only here, my brother had escaped and the look on his face is explaining everything mom. You should know that my sister is actually a teacher now;)

This is my brother and I at about ages 3 and 4. I'm older by 14 months. I remember LOVING this dress. It was peach and had pink rosettes on it and twirled;) Looking at it now, I'm just wishing for those natural blonde curls.

And lastly, there is almost all of us cousins here. From left to right there is me holding Lauren, Tamara, Tate, my brother, Joel holding Kyle and fighting with my sister, Tennille because she wanted to hold Kyle, and Ryan crying because he wanted his momma. It just makes me smile everytime I see it;)

The Civil Wars

2011-02-08T23:56:00.000-08:00

In Like a Lion

2011-02-07T23:17:00.000-08:00

March, 11, 2011...we will be finally leaving for Africa. Once our paperwork finally returned from Angola, life as I knew it went into warp speed. My days are filled with phone calls, drs appts, trips to the storage unit, and going through pages and pages of list of what to crate for the plane, what I've already purchased and what is still needed. I know the next few weeks will be a blur as we prepare for the big day. So, with that, know that I'll try to blog as often as I can. I leave you with the song I have on repeat on my Ipod;) The Civil Wars is my new favorite!! Its worth buying the whole album on itunes.

Lunchbox Love Notes

2011-01-27T10:18:00.001-08:00

Valentine's Day is one of my favorite holidays. I love the colors and candy and sentiments that go along with showing your love for someone! To me, nothing is better than getting a little something unexpected. Love notes are my favorite! So it's only fitting that we have a little contest around them;) I'm giving away a $50 gift certificate to My Creative Reality! This can be used towards session fees, print products, or artwork! Its really a perfect Valentine's gift. I know you're screaming, "Candra! What do we have to do to win???" Here's what you do...

1. Write a love note to someone you know and love.

2. Take a picture of it.

3. Post that picture on the My Creative Reality Facebook fan page and tell me about it!

For every love note you enter, your name will be entered to win! The more love notes around the better!!! They can be to your kids, your significant other, or even your mailman if you want;) I want to see your creativity and love! Now, these notes don't have to be in a lunchbox. They can be lipstick on the mirror, a quick message tucked in a briefcase, or even a quick email! Use your imagination, but show love;) Below is my first of a few love notes to my Handsome this month.

1.....2.....3.....GO! It ends February 14th!

Choosing Your Family Members

2011-01-26T19:04:00.001-08:00

"Getting a pet may be the only time you get to choose your family members.". Unknown

Looking back on these last few weeks, I just realized how many furry family members have been included in my photo shoots. It makes me miss my own little buddies, but these guys definitely deserve a little spotlight too. Enjoy!

This little guy takes the cake! I had just finished shooting in his owners home, when he decided to get on the chair and pose. He even sat patiently waiting while I adjusted my camera and everything! I'm told that his posing is a regular occurrence. It seems that whenever a camera is around, Tucker immediately stops what he's doing/destroying and poses for the camera!

The above photo is him telling me that modeling is boring.

In case you were wondering, Tucker has a slight OCD problem, theyre tring to break.He's not happy about it.
Jojo is a sweet guy who has an affection for bugs....
If his sister, Girl, doesn't get them first. Then again her main affection might be mud.

Gigi is a princess. She absolutely detest any "dog like" activities and likes to lounge on the couch. Make sure you don't sit in her spot ;)

And then there was Zodie. I confess. I comtemplated stealing her. I mean, she would have fit into my camera bag and everything!

And lastly were these siblings;) All rescues of a client, who were perfect posers! Mia the dog was ever so gracious while we jumped on the bed, can't you tell?

There were 10 animals in all in the last week. Though some were less than thrilled with having their picture taken, I had a pretty great time with these furry subjects;) Hope you enjoyed the pics!

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Location:In the air!

Promotions

2011-01-24T15:57:00.001-08:00

Silence. It's what I've been craving. Ever since we've be spending most of our time in Houston, I've noticed a change in my preferences. While living in suburbia California I loved blaring my music while cleaning, or turning on the tv, but in a high rise downtown, you become accustomed to the ever present energy of the city. There are construction workers, sirens, cars, buses,and even the occasional helicopter reporting traffic. I find myself shutting the windows and turning off the television and just listening to nothing while I work in the house. It's my one area of control. There is so much unknown in our lives right now that I think this is a way for me to deal. It helps my stress level in all this unknown. Unknown, can really be a scary word.
As a woman (young woman;) its terrifying, but as an artist/photographer unknown isn't always bad. We begin to create and not knowing
the exact final result is ok. We let it happen. The issue comes in when we don't let the same apply to our lives. Yes, we need to start with the right tools and set up the best possible scenario for life/art, but letting go and letting things happen on their own makes life wonderful. This past year has been a lesson in the unknown. We've been waiting on Africa for well over a year now. the best possible set up has been done, it's just not our time yet.

While visiting Charlotte, NC this past week, I listened as my Aunt spoke to a crowd of 900+ about life. She told of her school days and how every year teachers give exams to see which of their students are ready to progress to the next level. In 2010 I've been tested. I say with all certainty, that it has been one of the worst/best years of my life. So much bad...so much good...so hard to see the difference sometimes;), but I'm ready to make the next level. I'm ready to take what I've learned and go higher than ever.

In a step in that direction, I want to show you what I've been working on these past few weeks of absence. Check out the photos below and be looking for updates in new work I'll be doing with Giant Records;). Ive taken a more active role in creative marketing for them and am excited about all the possibilities in the near future!

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Location:Charlotte, nc

Welcome Anderson Reid

2011-01-09T10:37:00.000-08:00

So many things have filled these last few weeks, and I can't wait to share what's in store for the new year! Until then, this sweet welcome will have to do. P.S. I will be teaching photography and digital art classes in Charlotte, North Carolina on Saturday, January 22. If interested please contact Lauren Bustard at World Worship Center.

For Unto Us a Son is Born

2010-12-22T22:17:00.000-08:00

There are few times in our lives when what stands between us and Heaven feels transparent. I had that feeling just a few days ago when I had the honor of filming/photographing the birth of a friend's son. Admittedly I was weepy the whole time. That moment where life joins us is so magical and beautiful, I can only imagine what Mary must have felt like that night in the stable. I often wonder what she wanted that time to be like. Though I'm sure she didn't know to wish for papparazzi or an epidural, I bet she had hopes of what that moment held. She probably didn't want to deliver in a stable near animals, or be without her mother or sister, or to lay him in a place that was used as a trough. But she learned that sometimes God has to bring us to a low place give us something beautiful. He has to eliminate our preconceptions, our expectations, and our plans to give us something better. Mary might have dreamed about have a beautiful little girl that looked like her, but God planned to give her the Savior of the world! This Christmas, surrender to His plans. The family gatherings, the gifts, the moments might not be what you had in mind, but listen and look for the beautiful. It's there.

"Tears are falling, hearts are breaking
How we need to hear from God
You've been promised, We've been waiting
Welcome Holy Child
Welcome Holy Child

Hope that you don't mind our manger
How I wished we would have known
But long awaited, Holy stranger
Make yourself at home
Please make yourself at home

Bring your peace into our violence
Bid our hungry souls be fed
Word now breaking Heaven's silence
Welcome to our world
Welcome to our world

Fragile finger sent to heal us
Tender brow prepared for thorns
Tiny heart whose blood will save us
Unto us is born
Unto us is born

So wrap our injured flesh around you
Breath our air and walk our sod
Rob our sins and make us holy
Perfect Son of God
Perfect Son of God

Welcome to our world"

Words and Music by Chris Rice

We Have a Winner!!!!!

2010-12-13T09:59:00.000-08:00

and her name is...............................................Sava Rollins!!!! Can't wait for us to get together and shoot! Thank you all for participating in our blog hop. We just might have to make this a tradition;) Until next time, I wanted to share with you a photo and card from MY photo session. Since my cancer surgery, I have been making us take photos once a year and most of the time Handsome indulges me without complaining. This was wasn't one of those times;) He started my telling my friend who was there to snap the camera, that we were using sniper rules during this shoot. "One Shot, One Kill". So we would pose, she would snap and he would announce "Wer'e done!" For the record, he was just teasing me, and did pose like I wanted him. So, here is one of the better shots from our session, and our Christmas card;) I love them because they both represent our personality. Enjoy! It reads "Christmas is like a kiss under the mistletoe. It should be shared with someone you love. Wishing you love, happiness, and mistletoe moments this Christmas, Candra and Wesley George"

Curtains

2010-12-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

It's Christmas time. No doubt about it. As I shopped for gifts this week, it was inevitable that I wait in lines. In one such line, in a store I won't name as to protect those recieving aforementioned gifts, I took the opportunity to people watch and listen. There was a professional who was shopping on her lunch break and an unsatisfied clerk who was going on and on about how his girlfriend of 10 years just didn't get him. The curtains they put up to guard themselves became a little transparent in those moments. I saw bits and peices of their lives unfold before me. As I left with my purchases, I thought about how important our reactions can be. People put in stressful situations show you who they really are. The professional on her lunch break was being told that her packages would take more than a few minutes to wrap. She had two choices. She could be angry and take it out on the clerk, or be understanding and work out an alternative. I thought it was nice that she exibited some self control. The lesson I learned again is that kindness is a choice. By being kind-hearted, she let the sales clerk feel more at ease. He then felt comfortable enough to share something personal with her. A chain reaction was started. When it came my turn at the register, he accepted my return with a much better demeanor. It made my shopping easier and the chain reaction continued.

Kindness is a choice. In the hundreds of decisions that we make everyday in this Christmas season, it isn't always easy to be kind. We have family gatherings with people we may or may not be thrilled to be around. There are holiday parties with crazy coworkers, sales clerks with commissions in mind, and let's not forget those Nascar tracks we call parking lots (what I personally abhor the most). However, kindness can be present even when love is not. It can show itself even in frustration or hurt!
You know what the most beautiful part is? When we show kindness to someone, especially somebody who doesn't deserve it, God's curtain becomes a little more transparent. There are moments at Christmas when that curtain becomes so thin, that we feel the presence of our Creator, that there is little distance between us and Him. He is what it's all about you know;) Choose kindness this Christmas! It doesn't have to be big to make a big difference. Let your kindness this season, be a His gift.

Now for my gift! I am giving away a free session (valued at $125). As your last stop on this blog hop, you might know what you have to do! Leave a comment to be entered and the winner will be announced Monday morning;) Comments will not be accepted after midnight Sunday. Good luck! Until then, enjoy a peek behind my curtain;)

Thank-you for participating in the blog hop!!! To start at the beginning go here. There are SUCH GREAT prizes from the other bloggers;) Merry Christmas!

Things I Don't Want for Christmas

2010-12-06T19:46:00.000-08:00

So, I've been a bad blogger lately. No excuses really, just taking time for my family and that sometimes takes away my blogging mojo;) Thanksgiving was very nice. My neice decided that since my parents dining room remodel was finished, she wanted us to have a Thanksgiving like in pictures. When we looked puzzled she said, "You know, like with the big turkey in the middle of the table." So, of course, Auntie Candra had to brine and baste and make turkey goodness;) And it was devine, by the way. Making the turkey did bring out my cooking mojo! Sometimes I pretend to be Martha Stewart. I also made this pie.
You can find those pie cutters here. A little trick to know is if you mix a couple of drops green, red, and yellow food coloring into an egg white and the colors don't run together. Using a pastry brush, paint the already positioned leaves. Sprinkle with a fine sugar, like creme brule sugar and when baked they look like beautiful fall leaves! This pie was as delicious as it looked;)

After Thanksgiving we had a family emergency and spent the next several days at the hopsital trying to understand the problems my grandfather was having. It was a very hard few days. He is now recovering from brain surgery and doing well. After two weeks at home, I made the decision to come back to Houston for a few days to regroup and get a few things done before heading back home and to the hospital. On the flight home, I was trying to sleep get my mind off of the latest family crisis. Sleep didn't come so, I decided to browse through the Skymall magazine. I found the laugh I had needed;) Here are a few things I DON'T want for Christmas.

The WishWrap. What is a WishWrap? If you guessed a warm wrap with a pocket for your wishes, you guessed right! No one over the age of 7 should EVER wear anything like this.

Disco in the shower anyone?

If you get me these ear cups, I'm SO gonna bedazzle them! (This is one of those gifts that when you say, "Oh you shouldn't have!" you REALLY mean it.) And finally, The Siamese Slanket...it needs no words.

Hope this makes your holidays a little bit brighter;) By the way, on Friday I will be a part of a blog hop and will be giving away a free session! Be sure to check it out to win!

Ezra

2010-12-04T19:27:00.000-08:00

Such a lovely and unusual name for a girl. I loved it from the moment they told me;) It means "help". I'm certain this little girl, soon to be here, will help create memories and shape the lives of her parents. She will help make them more of who there are. Enjoy the images below.

Congratulations Jessica and Jacob!

I'm Dreaming of a PINK Christmas

2010-11-19T21:05:00.000-08:00

So, I have taken to Mississippi this time of year to hang out with the ever beautiful (and wild) neices. Its always a challenge to keep them occupied during our "Fabulous Girls" parties. Oh, and if you're wondering what "Fabulous Girls" are, its what they decided, on their own, to start calling themselves. Its their club and they are the only members. I just get to join them from time to time;).

They are a such fun ages! Olivia, at 9, is the oldest. She is actually my cousin's daughter, but she lives next door and is over here so much that she kinda belongs to us;) Taryn, is 7, and has those beautiful blue eyes. Dailyn, just turned 6, however she is the tallest and the most athletic. ALL the girls want everything the same and PINK! It always has to be pink. (Currently they are upset at me because their Christmas picture outfits aren't the same and are red.) The only thing they love more than pink and Justin Bieber is crafts. Tonight I let them sleep over and we decided to make cupcakes and craft. They worked with punches and I worked with cake batter and it was magical;) I sat the three of them in a row and as they punched, I asked them questions.

Me: "How old do you girls think you want to be before you get married?"
Dailyn: "Probably just 10."
Olivia: "19."
Taryn: "I want to be 32."

Me: "Where do you girls think babies come from?"
Dailyn: "Your belly button."
Taryn: "You eat real healthy and then Jesus gives you a baby."
Olivia: "No way that's not right. Just one kiss from your husband and BAM! you have a baby."
I've learned a lot tonight;). Apparently, I've been going about this baby thing the wrong way!

Oh how I love hearing the world from their perspective. Tonight I let them make the stuff for cupcake toppers and tags for their gifts for school. First, I set them up at a table and let them choose a paper from Urban Lily. I sent them punching away while I baked. Later we glued flowers to tags, and cut circles from papers, and filled bags with peppermints. When the dust cleared, and the girls stopped fighting over papers and Justin Bieber and who was going to sleep next to each other, we had really cute stuff. The cupcakes were delicious, the gifts were swell and Auntie Candra was exhausted. All was right in the world, and we have a few photos to prove it;)

These may not be perfect, but at this time of year, it's so important to let those little ones help in the holiday task. Here are a few tips to help in that area.
1. Give them simple things to do together. Each of the girls has a mini punch with their own paper. It's simple and keeps them busy.
2. Make it fun and an easy clean-up. When they are sprinkling their cupcakes, put them on a large cookie pan. The little bits of sugar land more in the pan than on the counter. It keeps most of the mess contained.
3. Don't worry if it isn't perfect. Let go. Their little projects or baking (or behavior) may not be perfect, but that's what makes it so special. The memory of the time together is the most important part. They just need to remember that they had fun with you. You need to remember that they are only this age once. Soak it in;)
4. Break the rules. We are having a PINK Christmas, with much thanks to Urban Lily;) We are also staying up late tonight and having cupcakes for breakfast tomorrow.
5. Send them home full of sugar. (This only works for Aunties.)

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Never Grow Up

2010-11-16T01:23:00.000-08:00

It's always a challenge this time of year, shopping for the perfect gift. My mom requested several years ago for us to not "buy" gifts. Instead she's wanted "made" gifts. Being a photographer and working in the scrapbook industry, this usually isn't a problem, but making it new and different every year can be.

This idea was in the making in the spring. I wanted to photograph all the kids together and we came up with an Easter egg hunt. Mind you, it was a week after Easter, but since Auntie Candra missed Easter (and put $20 in one the eggs) the kids were willing to repeat the fun. It was a wonderful afternoon! We gave the kids tons of sugar and had a dance contest! This film is a labor of love and something I will cherish forever. I hope you enjoy the film and my mom enjoys this part of her Christmas present;) Oh, and I'm posting it now because she is remodeling and has awful internet service that doesnt allow her to view it. However, feel free to comment and tell her how awesome her gift is!

Please pause the player to the right before you begin watching.

Song: "Never Grow Up" by Taylor Swift

Filming and photography by Candra George and Mandy Cauley

It's here!

2010-11-14T20:26:00.000-08:00

The Holidays have arrived! I can hardly contain my excitement. Seriously, I was giddy purchasing hot chocolate at Williams Sonoma tonight. It has proven to be a very nice weekend. Hold on, here we go!
Friday night was dinner and dessert with Handsome. He bought me a monster peice of chocolate cake!
Saturday I was honored to be a guest speaker at the Canadian Crop and Cruise welcome party. Allison Orthner is so amazing in person and it was so much fun meeting her and all of the cruisers! I really wanted to go, but alas, I'm not Canadian;( Afterwards, I headed back into the city for an ultimate competition. Wii Dance!!!! My friends and I danced until after 1 am and it was a blast!!!! I have found my new cardio and I rock at it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It can't have to many exclamation points. Sunday was cold. Where most of us were sweating on Friday, today, I donned scarf, hat, gloves, and a coat. I don't have a picture, but know I was pretty cute;) I'm just hoping its here to stay. I will wait to share what we did during the day until I have pictures from Handsome. Yes, you heard me right. HE had the camera today, and I must say my eyes welled up a little at the shots I saw. They aren't finished yet, but I promise to share later;) He's really SUCH a good photographer. It makes my heart sing! Tonight I ventured to Williams Sonoma. Mostly for the hot chocolate, but also picked up a few baking goodies to make with the kids next week. So, all in all a successful few days and I can't wait for the rest of the week. I'll leave you with a few more pictures of the lovely Melana Miller, my dance partner in crime;)

Just a bit of beautiful

2010-11-11T14:22:00.000-08:00

Its been super busy around here, but I wanted to take a moment to show you a photograph from today;) I can't wait to share more! My friend, Melana, is simply beautiful.

Heaven

2010-11-01T22:01:00.000-07:00

This day was one of those days when you KNOW your an adult. It wasn't horrible or wonderful or even mundane. It was just very full. Today I dealt with loss, love, endings and beginnings...stress dealing with finances, relationships, healing, new clients and old clients.

It took me forever to get out of bed, perhaps wanting the covers to protect me from the ominous day;) Unfortunately the phone had ended up under the covers with me. (I had already packed up the nightstand for Africa.) The phone calls, and all the things that came with them, further fueled my hibernation. I kept telling myself that I would get up when the air conditioner went off again, and that I was going to stop sleeping with my phone. Finally, at the very last possible minute, I somehow dragged myself and the appropriate equipment out the door. It occured to me while driving out of the garage that I hadn't looked in the mirrow, but then I figured, screw it. I did that yesterday and it wasn't worth repeating. And so my day went on. Photo work went well, as did a few errands, but then the road blocks were back again. I realized that while shooting I had sat in some type of chocolate candy. It looked like I had crapped myself;) I realized this in the special occasion section of Nordstrom's. Then, my dress for the wedding this weekend wasn't altered correctly and there was no time to fix it. The shoes I had been saving and drooling over were no longer available in my size (in any Nordstrom's in the country) and then the topper on the cake revealed itself. I welcomed rain and lightning and thunder in the Jeep that conveniently had no top on it. At least I hadn't killed myself to look decent before I left. I gave up and came back to the apartment. Today I wished for Heaven. I wished for a place that people don't lose their loved ones, a place where there aren't any hurt feelings, or fear, or separation....that place where people always understand exactly the intentions of others, and there is never miscommunication....a place where there are tops on Jeeps.

Once home I pulled out the suitcase and began to pack for the next trip. Then I plugged the camera in to download the days latest. It was then that I realized that God gives us a little piece of Heaven everyday. I see Heaven in the photos below.

Letters to Sheila #2

2010-10-25T15:40:00.001-07:00

I was overwhelmed by the response to my "Letters to Sheila" post a week ago. Happiness and emotion filled in when I began to read your letters. I am and will always be happy to accept and post your anonymous letters of the things you wished you could have/would have said. To post them anonymously go here, no name or email required.

Click on the letter to have a larger view.

Astronaunts and Presidents

2010-10-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

When I had just married, and Lauren had just finished high school, we we spend time talking about what we wanted to do, what was typically expected of us......life. We always wanted to be different than those around us. For me, it was not having kids right away, finishing school, and making my own path. Lauren's were similar, but of course included that she didn't want to marry right away and wanted to be a writer. In between trying on clothes, making silly videos , we would practice the lines we would give to those asking.
I would say "No, were not trying (to get pregnant), but we are practicing A LOT."
She would say to a guy proposing, "I'm sorry, I just don't think I can get married until I accomplish my dream of being an anstronaunt." or "I just need to be President first. When we live in the White House, THEN I'll marry you."

Well, in just two short weeks, my lovely resident model (family you don't have to pay), will be married. We have been through so much together, good and bad and wonderful. Her marrying Rocky will be part of the wonderful. We love him;)

Now there are four of us girls. Tamara, Polly, Lauren, and I are more than just first cousins. I always have seen these three as my little sisters. For each of Tamara and Polly's weddings, I was able to make their wedding bouquets. It was something personal from me to them. However, I wasn't supposed to be able to make Lauren's wedding. Chevron had scheduled us to be in Africa and it was going to cost several thousand dollars for me to come back. So instead of being her maid of honor and creating her bouquet, I was going to watch it on Skype. Not exactly what either of us had hoped;( However, God has worked it out that I am getting to go, last minute!!! So here I am, trying to figure out something special for her, when I happened on this idea! Lauren and Rocky are having an open ceremony for their church, but a private reception at another location following. She mentioned she didn't have a guestbook for the reception, so this is what I did:

I created through the magic of photoshop 10 postcards, bought postcard paper at Office Depot, and went to printing! Now at the door of the reception, friends and family will be greeted by this message:

Here are a few of the images I created using several of the pictures I've taken of them, and some random photos stolen from their facebook.

The postcard below has special meaning. I first saw the white horse, the day I helped Lauren move into her place in Los Angeles. She placed it on a prominent shelf and told me the story. After their first date, Lauren had told Rocky that all he needed was a white horse, to which he responded, "I have a friend with a white donkey. Will that work?" A few dates later, on her last night in Charlotte, he gave her the white horse. He said he'd be waiting.

The second photo is of a fortune. Rocky, being a guy and all, had kept a fortune cookie in his fridge for the last 3 years or so. After moving his stuff out a couple of weeks ago, they went in for one last look, and Lauren made him open the cookie. (She wants me to say that eating it was never an option.) The fortune read "You and your wife will be happy in your life together." It was the perfect beginning to a new chapter in their life.

Guys I hope you like your gift;) I love you both so much, and can't wait to see what is to come. And Lauren, I'm glad we aren't presidents or astronaunts.

digital credits

Letters to Sheila

2010-10-17T21:02:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers - This is something I have been wanting to do for a while. I read, sometime ago, a book of letters, from various authors, to those they often wish/wished to convey their thoughts to. Some were to their friends, teachers, family, and others were to political figures, celebrities, and those no longer with us. It was all the things they wanted to say but didn't, or wish they could currently say, but can't or haven't. After reading it a few times, and thinking about what letters I would write, I have decided that life is too short to not say what you want. I don't promise to always make the letters sweet or kind, but I do promise that they will always be honest. I welcome your "letters to Sheila" as well. Most of us, I feel, have things we wish we could say or could have said to certain people. Though it is healing to let go of what we could have said, it may not always be a good idea to mail those letters;) So for that reason, I will leave the intended annonymous. I will always call this "Letters to Sheila", no matter who the addressee may be, as to protect privacy and such. However, this first "Letters to Sheila" is actually that, a letter to my friend, Sheila.

Dear Sheila,
Today I have never been more proud to call you my friend. After 30 years, this was your last day of college. You have endured through classes, divorce, 2 children, family living with you, bankruptcy, forclosure, work stress, church obligations, and yet you have finished glowing with fabulosity. All of those things add up to a lifetime of accomplishments, but I just think of what you've done for me. The help you've given me alone, is enough for recognition, and I am so thankful and blessed.
When I knew no one in California, you invited me over.
When I couldn't go home for the holidays, your home was my home.
When I had to do flowers for my cousin's wedding, you went with me and kept me sane.
After I moved to Texas and still couldn't get home for the holidays, you flew in so I wouldn't be by myself.
When I moved back to California, you found me a house next to yours, and even helped me paint that office pink about 4 times to find the right shade, even though we told Wes it was only 2;) When I "graduated" and then found out I failed that math class, you encouraged me.
When I failed it again, you picked me up off the floor and helped me through.
The day I finally recieved my diploma, you were the first person I called, and were just as excited as I was.
I am so thankful for you being there, being my "other mother". Those late night walks when we would meet halfway have talked me off of more ledges than I could tell you, but then, you already know that. You've taught me to keep on beginning again, that each time you fail or face adversity, you grow stronger and accomplish a purpose. It may not be the one you began with, but it's one you'll be glad to remember.
Perhaps this isn't the way you thought you would finish your degree, but you HAVE FINISHED!!!!! They say that endurance is nobler than strength, patience, and beauty, but my sweet friend, it's apparent that you have all those things. You may not be perfect, but your pretty close;) Cogratulations to my friend, role model, and other mother. I am so proud of you.

Love, Me

p.s. - We are SO getting chocolate wasted and celebrating when I get there!

If you would like to send you own letter to Sheila, you may submit it annonymously here or comment annonymously. Names and contact information are never be shared, even I can't see them;)

Quiet Moments

2010-10-13T14:01:00.000-07:00

I think it's amazing how God knows what we need. With Africa so close, and another trip to Charlotte just before we leave, it seemed crazy to take off to the beach. However, after the past few weeks of drama and chaos, we packed up Sunday anyway. The sunrise at Perdido Key takes my breath away. It's in those quiet moments...when I'm not sure what to do, or think, or be, I can just walk and talk to God. It's like the views are His present to me for being there with Him.

I'm in awe of a God that can take care of big things (like saving the miners in Chili) and still give me little bits of happiness, just because.

Jesus love you, but I'm His favorite.

I get high.

2010-10-03T16:16:00.000-07:00

When I stepped in the sand, I knew.

When I saw the light, I knew.

When I pressed the shutter, I knew.

When I showed her the back of my camera, she felt it too. Without words we spoke the same thing.

That is the connection I love, that I get high on, that keeps me going...every...single...time.

(quote modified, original by Tara Whitney)

MIA

2010-10-01T22:28:00.001-07:00

So, I've been missing...and I've missed...people, places, pieces of me, deadlines, birthdays, gramatical errors, the list goes on and on. Things aren't great, but they're ok, and so am I. I will continue to be MIA for a little while, but not for long, I promise. Priorities are being upheld and right now I just need a break. Soon I will share lots of news, photos, and projects that are taking over my time...it will be worth the wait;)

Just the Way You Are - the California addition

2010-09-22T10:15:00.000-07:00

First double check that your speakers are on, so you can hear the song starting on the player to your right. Then read the post as you listen to the song!

Her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining

Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful, and I tell her everyday

I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me

It's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see.

But every time she ask me, "Do I look okay?" I say,

"When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change.

You're amazing, just the way you are.

And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while,

because you're amazing, just the way you are.

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she'd let me.

Her laugh, her laugh, she hates, but I think it's so sexy.

Shes so beautiful, and I tell her everyday.

You know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change.

If perfect's what you're searching for, then just stay the same.

So, don't even bother asking if you look okay, because I'll say,

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change.

You're amazing, just the way you are.

When you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while,

because you're amazing, just the way you are.

The way you are, oh the way you are,

Girl you're amazing, just the way you are.

When I see you're face, there's not a thing I would change.

You're amazing, just the way you are.

Song....by Bruno Mars. Dancing in the living room...by Candra George. Photos...taken by me or stolen from Facebook;)

2010 project 5

2010-09-20T18:55:00.000-07:00

Do you hear wedding bells? It just so happens, my friend Val is getting married to her handsome Mike in a few short weeks and I decided that she needed a garter for the big day! Those of you that have made that short walk down the aisle know that its the little things that get forgotten in all the drama and business surrounding the big day. Whether you're getting married or just want something cute to spice things up, here is you guide to a cute new accessory;)

First purchase elastic ribbon in the color or your choice. Val is a tiny girl, so I chose a skinny ribbon about 1/2 inch wide. Measure the ribbon approx 1.5 - 2 inches smaller than the size of the upper thigh and cut. You want this to be somewhere between fitting and cutting your circulation off, because if it's not, you'll be kicking it off going down the aisle. Next place a small amount of hot glue on the end. Yes, sewing this would be better, but as I don't have a sewing machine here...hot glue works just fine. Just make sure you allow proper cooling time.
Next, simply fold the end over onto the glue and let it cool. You are creating a finished, stitched look. Repeat for the other end.
Then you want to glue the ends just on top of each other.

Set the base garter aside and cut tulle in squares. How much is based on how large you want the flower you're making to be. These are approx. 6 in. aquares, which I layered several times to save myself cutting time.

Fold the squares over each other, cut in half, and round the edges using scissors.

Gather at the end and glue to a felt square, just like you would a fabric flower mentioned in the previous few posts.
Repeat and layer untill you have a flower the size you desire.

Lastly I glue a rhinestone to the center of the flower and a feather clip to the bottom.

Clip the feather flower to the garter base and there you have it!!! All done. The clip is useful in that it helps prevent sliding down the leg, and Val could also use it for her hair if she wanted.

I made a second smaller flower for her, just in case she wants a smaller something on her leg;) The clips are covered in felt as to not scratch.

Congratulations Valerie and Mike! I hope you're day is everything you want it to be and more;) P.S. - These cost lesst than $6 total;)

2010

2010-09-16T20:16:00.000-07:00

So I think the perfect compliment to the bags in the last post would be this!

Whether you have started cutting coupons or not, this lined envelope is just the place to keep them! Maybe this can be your motivation to start! So to begin, I purchased the lined, jute envelope above at my local craft store. It is by the same company as the bags that were in the last post.

I started by glueing strips of aqua velvet ribbon on the end of the envelope. I gathered the middle piece as I glued it. For most of these projects I will be using hot glue...mostly because I have no sewing machine here in Houston;)

Next, I cut 3, 6 inch strips of pink velvet ribbon. Can you tell I'm kinda in love with texture with all the velvet ribbon and felt pieces?
Next, I put a small dot of glue in the center of the ribbon, on the non-velvet side, and glued one end of the ribbon on top of the other.
This is another way to create a bow-like feel without the bulkiness of the twist in the center. This way it lays flat in the center.
Repeat until you have all three strips of ribbon like the photo below.

Next place the ribbons on top of each other. Note: placing them before gluing is always reccomended;)
I placed mine in opposing directions, and glued them together.

Then I placed a small dot of hot glue on the inside of the loops, one at a time and folded them down to create a ruffled effect. When you're done it should look like this.Finally I added a few of those cute felt balls in coordinating colors, and glued them all to the envelope. Coupon storage has never looked so cute!!!

Total cost for the coupon envelope.....$7.45. Now for project #4! In case you didn't know, it's football season!! So what better way to keep those cute little ones game ready, than with a bow that represents where your loyalty lies?

First, I purchased a nylon headband. You can make these very easily, simply by cutting a pair of your own pantyhose, gluing the ends together, and covering the end with a piece of grogain ribbon. I cheated. To be honest, I can't tell you when I the last time I bought a pair;) The nylon is supersoft and perfectly stretchy for those baby noggins;) This one cost $1.49. Then, using the "twisting"method of bow making, I folded the ribbon, making 4 loops. I also glued in a hair clip. (For more bow-making tips see the previous post.) Next I glued a fleur de lis onto the center of the bow. These are by Jolees. All that is left is to clip the bow to the headband! Super simple, super cute, and semi-homemade;)

Now your cutie can be cuter for under $3.75! Stay tuned for more creations coming up. We will be doing some paper crafting next!!!

2010...20 Days and 10 creations

2010-09-14T12:26:00.001-07:00

With all this hot weather we've been having, Christmas is looking good! However, we trade the heat for the hussle and bustle of gift finding. I think it's smart to think about those things now. In our family, we decided sometime ago not to give "things". (This was mostly because my mother wanted us to make something for her.) It really has been good, seeing something that has been made with love, being recieved by someone who loves it. But this stuff takes time, and with the move pending, I figured I'd get a head start. Besides, all this waiting around is driving me insane!!!! To remedy that, and occupy my time I have decided to do a little project. 2010 is an idea I stole from my cousin Lauren. She has such great ideas;) Here are creations #1 and #2!!!

I admit that I have a facination with reusable bags. Mind you that half the time I forget to take them to the store, but still I do what I can. The bags below, I think, are perfect! They are made of jute, so they are super durable, and I found them at Hobby Lobby here in Houston. I was unable to find a website for this particular manufacturer, but the tag says "Me and My Bag by Barbara A. Green". I'm sure you can find similar bags at your local craft store.

So, you start with a bag...
Now this bag came pre-stamped (the damask in white paint), but if you're feeling super creative, there are plain versions. You could choose a pattern and stamp to your hearts content. Just make sure that you choose the appropriate paint for the material you're stamping.
Next I cut a 5 inch strip of orange burlap.
...doubled it and wrapped it around one handle of the bag to check the size. Use your own descretion as to how long/short you would like this accent.Next I chose two felt flowers I purchased, and glued them to a ponytail holder using felt as a cover. The two flowers were glued one on top of the other, and then the ponytail holder between the flowers and the small piece of felt.
Next, just wrap the ponytail holder around the burlap and adust as needed! I wrapped mine twice. This is such a cute fall bag to carry your groceries in! At least I think so;) I also like when things have dual purposes. So in this heat and humidity, if you need to pull your hair up, simply borrow the cute pony from your bag!

Now on to creation #2.

Bag #2 is also pre-stamped or printed and I think it's my favorite! Now instead of making a sash for the bag from burlap, for this bag I chose a clip/pin instead. You begin by making a bow. Take the ribbon between your fingers and loop it around and hold. Next take the right side of the ribbon loop and twist to secure. Repeat until you have the desired amount of loops and tie the ribbon off with a second small piece of ribbon. You may also secure them with hot glue if that is easier for you. Now the next part is so much fun! Ribbon roses are the perfect accent to bows in my opinion. So to make one start by folding a 1 yard or more strip of wired ribbon, in half. This ribbon is 1.5 inches wide.
Next you begin to fold the ribbon around itself. Note that ribbon that is not wired is much more difficult to do this way. If you want to use unwired ribbon, please refer to the tutorial by my friend Suzanne, here. Continue until you have something that looks like this.

Next you will begin to roll the folded ribbon around in a circle. Make sure it is tight. Once you glue it down it will loosen some.

Once you've finished rolling your ribbon, cut a small piece of felt, just larger than you want your rose to be. Put a medium size bead of hot glue onto the center of the felt.

Place the rolled rose on top of the glue and hold there. You may need to glue around the edges just to make sure it's all secure and not going to unravel. Put glue around the edge of the rose to secure the last bit of ribbon.

Your finished rose should resemble the above photo. Next I trimmed the felt around the bottom of the rose, added a feather and glued it all to the bow I had made earlier. I added a last piece of felt and a clip. This hides any messiness and gives a more finished look. Lastly I clipped it to the bag!

Now remember what I said about having a dual purpose? I think this clip looks supercute on my new cardigan!
This is so much fun! Two bags, with reusable accesories, and did I mention that they cost under $13.00 each to make? Stay tuned for more of the creations for "2010"! I think these two are a great starting point;)

Let Them Eat Cake!

2010-09-12T22:50:00.000-07:00

So I am so blessed to have such great friends. One such friend is Leslie Daniels, and not only is the best friend, but she make the best cakes ever! I fell head over heels with these VeggieTales inspired confections she made recently for a birthday party.

I think Bob the Tomato looks pretty tasty! She is so talented! In addition to making cakes, and being my friend, she is in the Masters program at Cal State University. So, if you need wonderful, DELICIOUS, frosted, and fluffy cakes for your next events, check out her fan page on Facebook and be a fan! I promise you won't regret it! Enjoy a few more photos below of her lovely creations;)

Did Your Guardian Angel Go On A Smoke Break With Mine?

2010-09-07T22:21:00.000-07:00

Today was not exactly my day. It wasn't life changing, nor did anything really significant happen. I think is was just the culmination of everything building up to an overwhelming crescendo tonight. Then it happened. That song comes on the radio, you're by yourself, and the floodgates open. You feel all those things that go along with being overwhelmed.

The self pity: because why does it seem like you can't catch a break lately?
The anger: for letting yourself feel that way, because you're going through whatever this is
Then guilt: You think of others that have it worse.

We've all been there. (Heck, some of us live there!) I know I have lately. Part of it for me is hormones, and part is stress, and part is exhaustion.

The hormones: Seriously, do they make a birth control pill that doesn't make you crazy, gain weight, and break out like a 13 year old boy? I am never taking another one ever...ever.
The stress: We learned last week that certain parts of our paperwork for Africa had been "lost"...again. It's been almost 11 months now.
The exhaustion: 5 states in 7 days...I need not say more.

On my way home from taking pertinent documents to catch their flight to Luanda, I heard "Be OK" by Ingrid Michelson. It was kinda the sprinkles on the doughnut that I can't have. All those feelings came to the surface and it rained inside my car. I thought about the stuff I just dropped off, about my family, about what we've been dealing with, about what my friends have been dealing with. All of those things that we all think about and feel from time to time. When I got home I was thankful Handsome was already snoring, so I didn't have to explain "ugly girl" crying. I took warm laundry out of the dryer, opened my computer, and this was in my inbox;)

"Dear Weary Girl,

You were so tired today weren't you? You are tired of holding up the whole wide world, tired of being so darn tough, tired of being tested in every which way...tired of passing the tests, only to be given another one.

It's ok for you to have days like this, you know. IT REALLY IS OK. YOU ARE OK. LIFE IS OK. And...everything is going to turn out OK.

Everything is going to be ok, it really is. You are going to make it. Please get some rest, take care of yourself, and keep your spirits up. Keep your eyes on the end goal, and try your hardest to be patient with life's lessons. You are so wise. Remember that good people have bad days sometimes. Smart people do dumb things sometimes. Bad things happen to good people sometimes, and still, everything is going to be OK.

Breathe in, breathe out...take a hot bath, listen to your favorite music...and TRUST. And then keep trusting.

It's gonna work out, xoxo"

It's amazing how God knows exactly what you need, just when you need it. I was certain I wasn't the only one who needed to hear this today, so I wanted to share.

It really is going to be ok.

Support

2010-09-06T17:52:00.000-07:00

We find support in many ways, shapes, and forms. Some of us find comfort and support in God. Others look to a significant other, the person who can talk them off of a ledge, or out of a dress that is clearly not your color. Sometimes it's just in simple things, like a fresh load of clothes out of the dryer, or chocolate chip cookies, or your own bed after a long trip. All of these things are great, but today I'm thinking of a friend. A very dear one, who needs support. My friend, Suzanne Zing, lost her son yesterday to ALS or Lou Gherig's disease. He leaves behind a young wife, Cherene, two sons, Jake, who is 10, Nathan, who is 7, and countless friends and loved ones. For those of you who don't know, there is no cure for ALS. The two boys, Jake and Nathan, have been raising money for an ALS, so others don't have to lose their loved ones. So, today I am asking for your support. The quilt store that Suzanne owns is raffling off a quilt. It is beautiful, handmade, with 100% of the proceeds going to ALS. View the photos below of the quilt and the boys, and go here to purchase your $5.00 tickets. To read more about Suzanne, her wonderful family and store, and to hear their story visit her blog.

Peices of Life

2010-08-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

Friendships, relationships, and those we associate with all build a great deal of our foundations in life. At an early age, we shape who we are by the people we choose to spend our lives with. Many pieces, many colors, many sizes, all woven together with common threads. However, we limit ourselves when we only choose those who are like us. The most beautiful lives are those full of color, and sizes, and pieces of life that show appreciation of our differences.

10 Hours, 7 babies, 2 dogs, and 3 HOT Summer Days

2010-08-21T06:19:00.000-07:00

To say that things have been busy is an understatement. Though crazy, they have been proving to me that I have the BEST job in the world...more later...enjoy for now;)

Special Delivery

2010-08-17T09:07:00.001-07:00

Whenever newborns come along, I admit, I usually run! You know, for fear that it's contagious. However, there are exceptions. (Here lately quite a few;) I was thrilled at the chance to photograph sweet Ellie and her sister Reese yesterday. This week begins the last of my photography for a while, as we transfer to Africa. So expect lots of babies this week and maybe even a few couples. Until then, enjoy the "special delivery" I got to play with yesterday.

Aren't these girls just BEAUTIFUL!

I asked Reese to show me her eyelashes;)

Hope you're all having a wonderful start to your week!

Hot Time in the City

2010-08-09T11:14:00.000-07:00

In August the city of Houston makes you feel like you're going to melt. Such was the case this past Sunday. I was shooting a supercute couple's engagement pictures as well as family pictures for their extended. We started at the beautiful chapel at my alma mater, the University of Houston (Go Cougars!). What I didn't understand was why they felt the need to NOT run the air conditioner, but whatever! We suffered slightly, and were happy to have a place to photograph that was so lovely (and free). Afterwards, we headed back to my apartment. Sarah and Ryan might have thought I was a little crazy when I said I wanted to shoot in the oven, I mean parking garage! Two and half hours later we were wet, exhausted, and happy that it was over. Here are a few of the shots! I think they're hot:)

Aren't they such a pretty couple? The photo below is my favorite. I think it looks like a print ad from Anthropologie;)

Congratulations guys!

Tiny Things That Make You Celebrate Life

2010-08-03T10:59:00.000-07:00

My current tally of miles traveled since June 1 is now 29,101.6. This does not include miles to the store, or hospital, or gas station, just the starts and finishes of my recent trips. Let me explain...It wasn't long after I arrived in Houston that Handsome became very sick with strep throat. He was out of work for a week and unable to talk! (on a side note: His sign language needs a little work;) By the Friday he spoke and I declared that it would be a "do nothin" weekend. We had no plans nor did we intend to make any. It was supposed to be a weekend filled with hibernation and movies...noticed I said "supposed to be".

On Saturday, he decided that soup from the Thai restaurant was exactly what his throat needed and felt well enough to go out and get it. I stayed behind to tidy up for our "do nothin" weekend. It was just after he left that I decided that a Coke was what my throat needed and so I called his cell. I hung up when it rang inside the apartment, thinking to myself, "He never seems to have it with him when I need him too!" Little did we know that a Coke and Thai soup would soon be the least of our worries.

When I saw Handsome's father on my caller id, I was surprised. He never calls. I answered and asked what was going on. He proceeded to tell me that he loved me and that he just wanted me to know. Confused and thinking he was joking, I asked "What? Is there something you want? You know buttering me up isn't going to get you grandchildren any sooner." He was silent. It took a matter of seconds to realize that he wasn't joking. What I learned was that he was very sick and at the hospital. He had an infection and now his kidneys were shutting down. He was crying. I was crying, and then panicking, because my husband had left his phone! I told my FIL we'd be there as soon as we could, hung up, and starting throwing things in a suitcase. It seemed like forever, but when Wes got back we left for Mississippi.

A thorn...

Once there we learned that my father had been stuck in the upper thigh with the thorn of a Black Locust tree. It is poisonous, but he had been seeing a doctor about it. The doctor had prescribed an antibiotic, but two weeks had past and the wound looked worse. When he returned and the doctor discovered that the wound was infected, it was almost too late. MRSA had developed and was in his bloodstream. To make matters worse, the new antibiotic had interacted with medication he was already on and was causing his kidneys to fail. It was a close call, but a few days later we were able to bring him home from the hospital and begin the regular visits to wound care.

A tiny stone...

We had him home for about 48 hours when Handsome's mother said she wasn't feeling well. Which made us pay attention, because she never complains. Withing and hour she and I were on our way to the hospital for her. The diagnosis was a tiny kidney stone. So much pain from such a little thing! She said it hurt worse that having her twins.

A baby...

With both in-laws on the way to recovery and heavily medicated, Wes told me I could do what I had been wanting to do for a while. Go see my cousin, Tamara, and be with her as she delivered the latest addition to our family. So with all sleeping and resting, I left for Saint Louis as fast as I could! 48 hours later, I came back, with a new appreciation for the tiny things in life. A thorn, a stone, and sweet, sweet Lana Rose.

We are celebrating life this week at our house! Both of Wes' parents are well and here with us, and so is a new sweet baby. We are SO blessed. Enjoy the pictures below of Lana Rose (I think we might have to get us one of these one day;)

The Girl Who Cried Africa

2010-07-22T18:50:00.000-07:00

Today I feel like the boy who cried wolf, except... well, you know. My absence is due to all the packing and shopping and traveling that's involved when you move to Africa. To be honest, most days lately I don't feel like what I'm doing is getting me there any faster, or doing me any good. I FEEL LIKE I'M NEVER GOING TO GET THERE. I am so emotionally, physically, and mentally drained, but you would be too if you traveled 27,053.2 miles since June 1st. However, to answer the many questions that I've been recieving via email, phone calls, and facebook...here goes.

1. Yes, we are moving to Africa.
2. No, really, we are actually moving to Africa.
3. No, I don't know when, but hopefully in the next 6 weeks.
4. Yes, I know I've said that before.
5. No, we will not be in the jungle.
6. Yes, you can come visit.
7. No, you're not going to want to get all the shots (22 and counting;)
8. Yes, Angola is where they mine diamonds.
9. No, I can't get you any.
10. Yes, I will get to come home just as often.
11. No, I will not have a complete household staff.
12. Yes, I will have a car and driver.
13. No, we aren't allowed to drive over there under any cirsumstances.
14. Yes, I will be taking lots of pictures.
15. No, I'm not allowed to photograph everything I'd like there.
16. Yes, it's illegal to take pictures of most things.
17. No, I'm not afraid.
18. Yes, I'm overwhelmed.
19. No, I'm not giving up.
20. Yes, it's worth it.

Bloom and Grow

2010-07-08T01:28:00.001-07:00

One of my favorite songs growing up was "Edelweiss" from the Sound of Music. It thrills my heart to hear my neices beg to watch that movie;) The words of that song were the inspiration for my most recent maternity shoot. "So small and bright...may you bloom and grow." Thankfully, I had a mommy and daddy up for whatever was in my head! Her adoration for zebra prints, vintage pictures, and Krispy Kreme doughnuts instantly bonded us;) See the "California Grown" photos below.

Special thanks to Murray Family Farms, whose staff were exceptionally accomodating and wonderful. This is a wonderful place to take your family!!! If you're in the area, it's a must see;)

Ashley and Joe, I truly have the best time with you guys! Can't wait to meet your cute little "peach";)

Diving In

2010-07-07T00:53:00.000-07:00

I've been called a great deal of things in this life(and some of those things to my face). One thing I always like to hear is that I'm creative. It's a compliment to have friends and clients come to me and ask that I come up with something new and different for their pictures. Though there have been times my new and different have been thought of as crazy, and that's ok;) I do always try to put myself in the shoes of those I photograph. Such was the case this week.
I bought underwater housing for my camera...something I've been wanting to do for a while. Tried it out and the outcome left a lot to be desired. Not to be conquered, I made adjustments and notes, and took after it again. One of the most challenging photo shoots EVER! Who knew how hard it was to hold yourself underwater, look through 3 viewfinders, and shoot? My model was perfection, going on 8 months pregnant. Though to not stress her or the handsome boy inside, we only did body shots. Below are the results. I think they're a bit dreamy;)

Nicholas, Claire, and Olivia

2010-07-05T01:15:00.000-07:00

Our dear friends have two beautiful daughters, and last year decided to add to their family by adopting a son from overseas. The love is apparent, and I was happy to play a part in capturing it. You can read about their love story here.

Lesson of the Day

2010-07-05T00:36:00.000-07:00

Take time to stop and smell and photograph the roses.

A Little Grace on Independence Day

2010-07-04T21:33:00.000-07:00

So happy to finally photograph Little Miss Gracie. She came into the world in February and has waited all this time to get to see me and have her picture taken. Amy, she was worth the wait! Love this little one;) Enjoy!

Layovers

2010-06-23T20:50:00.000-07:00

Recently I realized that in the past few weeks I have traveled over 20,000 miles. It's been a big joke among my friends that keeping up with me is kinda like the game/book "Where's Waldo?" When I travel, its rare that I actually enjoy my layovers, but this past week was an exception. After making plans I ended up with a several hour layover in Denver, CO, and for the 1st time, I was super excited!! Liz Hicks (aka "The Brave, Honest, Real, Talented and Amazing Liz Hicks) and I have been friends for a few years. We started out together at Prima Marketing, teaching classes independently, and our careers grew from there! She relocated from LA to Denver to work for Tattered Angels, and I couldn't wait to see her and her cute little family. I missed seeing her when I was in California..the late phone calls, the long dinners (usually before I boarded another plane). Today was the day to catch up a bit!!

She was a little late, my plane was a little early, the restaurant we planned to go to was full with a long wait, so we improvised our visit. It happens! You learn working like we do that you just have to smile and be flexible. My flexibility kicked in when I got in her car and her daughter, Sedona said "Oh Mommy, she looks so pretty!" I wanted to kiss her cheeks! The boys aren't so bad either, Sawyer and Jackson kept us smiling the whole time too;) After lunch we drove around and happened to see a great little photo op and we stopped! These kids and their beautiful mommy had to have pictures! Here is the result...
A kiss from mom is always something to smile about;)

Sweet faces...

Scary faces....

But mostly sweet faces;)

Thanks Liz for the best layover ever;) I miss you and the kids already! You can read all about the Brave, Honest, Real, Talented, Amazing Liz here and here and here. I highly recommend it!

The Beginning of Africa

2010-06-18T00:01:00.000-07:00

It feels like forever since I've blogged. The days have just been running together ever since we recieved formal approval to go to Angola. Shopping for the house, medical visits, shots (I lost count a long time ago, but my little yellow card is full), ultrasounds, and paperwork and Portuguese lessons have taken over my days. Finally the time to tell you about the trip. Let me begin...

We arrived in Luanda, Angola on a Tuesday morning and were greeted by our friends. So happy to see Larry, Robbie and Walt! Even Anna skipped school to see us and I'm sure it was such a sacrifice;) After saying very brief hellos, we were off to freshen up at the hotel and begin meetings. We stayed at the Hotel Skyna and it was lovely. I was able to speak enough Portuguese to find out about getting an iron for our room. It was a really roud moment for me;) Security meetings were followed by cultural meetings, and they were followed housing information. The following days were more of the same. We met great people at restaurants at night and the food I had been so worried about wasn't as bad as I anticipated. The lunches were prepared by individuals who already live there and they were, by far, the best meals we had. (I have a new love and it's Alexa's chicken curry with coconut milk;)

Beautiful atmospheres, beautiful places, beautiful people, and I can't wait to go back. The best part of the whol trip was seeing what will be my home for the next 2-3 years. It is so much more than I imagined. The doors, windows, and woodwork are this photographer's dream. 4000 square feet for the 2 of us, split between 5 bedrooms and 5 baths! (I see a private dressing room in my future!) I can't wait to get back and set up.

Enjoy the photos below and anticipate many more on this journey. Hope you're up for the ride cause I'm taking you with me!

Africa

2010-06-07T00:09:00.000-07:00

So, it's finally here! I was begining to feel like I was never going to get on a plane, but I am Africa bound (Luanda, Angola to be exact) in just a few hours. There are so many feelings that I have right now, but the biggest would have to be that I am overwhelmed. Stay tuned for LOTS of pictures and a first hand account. As soon as I get internet service I will catch you up! Can't wait to share it all!!!
xoxoxo:)

Lesson for Today

2010-05-29T20:54:00.001-07:00

Sticking your tongue out while trying to accomplish something always helps;)

My 4yr old nephew Trey, trying really hard to knock it out of the park!

365

2010-05-26T06:00:00.000-07:00

One year ago, God used great surgeons at UCLA to make me cancer free. I think that sharing something I've already written best describes how I think/feel today. At the start of 2010 I wrote the words below, reflecting on what I had learned from all we went through in the previous year. On this first anniversary, it's still what resonates in my mind today.

"I've learned that sickness can be a blessing in disguise, and that life's disappointments are harder to deal with if you don't say cuss words.

It's important to be honest, not just to others, but really to yourself. If you're scared, angry, happy...it's okay to be that way. Let yourself feel honestly. Don't try to convice yourself you're something you're not.

You CAN redefine the impossible...with a career, with cancer, with friendship, with love, but only with God.

I've learned that sometimes people have to suffer before they can risk doing something they love, and that it can mean passing up really good things to make room for really great things.

You should never have to apologize for being who you are. Be yourself. Let who you are, what you are, what you believe in shine through every sentence you write, everything you finish, every photo you take.

Memories and reminiscing can be healing or damaging. It's important to know where you came from. These foundations are what made you who you are. Coming to terms with why you make certain mistakes and miss chances over and over can help you move forward. The danger is that you can spend so much time in the past wondering what could have been, that you miss what could be today. You end up torn. You can't change the past, only learn from it and move forward.

People may forget what you said, made, or did, but they won't forget how you made them feel.

"Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret, but to aspire to. When you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're passing it onto someone else." (Five People You Meet In Heaven)

Scars are there for a reason. Ugly they may be, but they serve a purpose. They remind us where we've been and what we have survived; that we have fought and won.
(Making up excuses on why you have them is fun too;)
Girl at ticket counter: "Oh, did you have surgery on your throat?"
Me: "No, I got this in a bar fight a while back. You should see the guy I beat up!"

Lastly, it's SO important that you have fun. Laugh! Dance! Run! Play! Be the biggest cheerleader for those you love! Don't stop there. Get in the game! You shouldn't be content to be a spectator or just watch from the sidelines. You won't regret playing, only that you didn't."

10 Things I Love This Tuesday

2010-05-25T11:47:00.000-07:00

1. Ice packs on yellow fever injections;)

2. My new website!

3. This book. The best $8.00 I ever spent, because it is hilarious! Its by the people at awkward family photos.

The caption on this photo reads "Last we checked, being in a fraternity doesn't qualify as a talent."

4. Frank's Pizza. A great little place that has the best meat combination pizza. The best/worst part is that it's next door to our building here in Houston.

5. Anything printed on metallic photo paper! Loving my new business cards;)

6. Hope Floats. I found this movie in the $5 bin at Walmart and was estatic! Definitely one of my favorites.

7. "Let's Give Them Something to Talk About" by Bonnie Rait. It's on Hope Floats, and if it isn't my theme song, it at least on the top 10 soundtrack of my life.

8. The fact that my cousin/model Lauren is engaged and happy. Congratulations!

9. Pierre, my cute elephant charm necklace from JCrew. He reminds me of where I'm going (Africa) and what I will look like if I don't stay away from Frank's.

10. That there are only 12 more days until I get to go to Africa and 20(+/_) more days until I get to back to Cali!

It's Finally Here!!!!

2010-05-21T13:01:00.000-07:00

My new website is LIVE and I couldn't be happier;) You can now access this blog, see a portfolio of my photos, art, information reguarding sessions and order prints all from one place!!! Check it out at www.mycreativereality.com and leave a comment letting me know what you think;)

Andrea

2010-05-10T19:02:00.000-07:00

It was an unexpected proposal. Matthew never purchased a ring, but instead bought his lovely girl a Taylor guitar instead. Not just any guitar, but the one she had been dreaming of since she was a little girl.

Layla

2010-05-09T17:28:00.000-07:00

It was rather unexpected that I was able to spend some time with this bundle of sweetness! Layla is turning 2 next Friday and I can't believe she's this big already. It seems like yesterday that she was born, and I was putting her in a bird's nest and placing wings on her back. Oh, and she was peeing on me;) Happy Birthday Sweet Layla! Thanks for being the cutest model ever!

This one might be my favorite. During the whole shoot, she wanted to wear my shoes.

I also wanted to say Happy Mother's Day. It will be a very happy one for me, because I'll be with my mom;)

10 Things I Love This Tuesday

2010-05-04T13:04:00.000-07:00

1. J Crew's latest catalog...their clothing is ALWAYS my favorite. This catalog is the inspiration for another dress I'm working on and will probably dye with Glimmer Mist (I can't help it! I have a problem. My name is Candra, and I'm addicted to Glimmer Mist.) To see the last awesome dress (featuring Miss Lauren Bustard) click here.

2. These shots taken in New Orleans.
I can't wait to go back there and photograph more.

3. The memory of my college graduation. I had finished finals and drove home 6 hours to spend a few days with my family before the ceremonies. My cousin Polly and Aunt Renee drove along ahead of me back to the school. The whole trip Polly was making homemade signs with a black marker and notebook. Signs that said "Graduation or BUST!" "Candra did it!" just to name a few. She would put them in the back window of the car so I could see them as we drove. It was awesome. Why I'm thinking of it now is because this Saturday I get to return the favor. Polly's is graduating, with honors and all kinds of awards, with a bachelor's degree in psychology! I'm so proud of you!!!! and I'm already working on my signs;)

4. I'm in love with anything Tim Walker.

5. I love where my life is headed right now. Though currently it's a little scary and unkown, God is showing me that His timing is perfect, and what I'm having to give up is worth what He will give me in return.

6. MY NEW WEBSITE!!!!!! http://www.mycreativereality.com/ should be up and running in about a week;) I am elated!

7. This photo I came across a couple of days ago. I can't help but laugh. I was taking family photos of my brother and his family when he decided to demonstrate to his children how to properly "frolick in a field". He always makes me laugh.
8. Sweetie Peetie. This website is where you can get adorable hair accessories for your little ones. The girls and products there are awesome!

9. Being blonde again thanks to Nadine at Traci Scott Salon.

10. Spanx...they need no explanation. (Though having them explains that I've had WAY too much Chik-fil-a.)